Kidnappers or Best Friends || Book 1

Chapter 6 || Why Wouldn't I

***WARNING get your tissues***

I look up and see a laughing Trevor.

"Holy crap Trevor you scared the shit out of me" I say

"I see that" he said laughing.

"What do you want" I say

"Had to check if your sleeping" he said

"You had to or you wanted to" I say

"I had too ok" he said

I say back up on the window chair.

"So what were you thinking about" he asked sitting next to me.

"You know life" I say

"Really?" He said in guessing he knows that in lying.

"Are you guys going to kill me" I asked quietly

"No why" he asked

"Because let's use say I am close to doing myself" I say and it was true. I really don't want to live anymore.

"Why"he asked

"Why why dose everyone ask that
Why would you guys care                                                                                                                                                          why would anyone care                                                                                                                                                       Why" I say

"Marissa people ask because they love you we care because we love you" he asked

I wanted to fight back but I couldn't I wanted to tell him that no one loves me I wanted to tell him that I'm worthless I'm a waste of time. but i couldn't I couldn't tell him that he was wrong because somehow he was right.

"Marissa it's ok" he says

Ugh I hate when people say that because they don't know me they don't know how I'm feeling. if I'm ok. not it's going to be ok. ITS NOT.

"ITS NOT its not going to be ok i bet my mom isn't even looking for me i bet she happy I'm gone. why why should i live why should i not kill myself die right now jump out a window off the roof not thinking twice just do it" i say almost crying

"marissa you stay because you know that people are still out there for you your friends that care about you" he says

"friend other then that they are just people i know not people i can trust people i can tell everything too" i say

"marissa just know that there are people that care about you" he said

I just didn't say anything I just put my head in Trevor's chest and started crying.
"Shhh your ok we won't hurt you" he said "i promise" he then start running his fingers though my hair

Trevor POV

i really like marissa. not like that. like a sister. i think all of us do. well except kian. kian loves her like girlfriend and boyfriend. they would make a cute couple.

marissa puts her head in my chest and i start running my finger in her hair in till she fell asleep. i carry her over to her bed and tuck her in. then before i live the room i kiss her on her forehead. then left and went downstairs to where all the guys were. thought i first locked her door because thous are the rules.

i sit down and start watching tv.

"so trevor hows she holding up" ricky asked

"i don't know" i said

"what do you mean you don't know" ska asked

"i don't have to tell you" i say and walk upstairs with out saying anything else.

i walk into my room.

about 5 minutes later i hear someone knock at the door.

"who is it" i say

"trevor its me" i hear someone say but i knew who it was it was the one and only Kian Lawley.

"come in" i say

kian comes in my room and sits backwards in my desk chair well i sit of end of my bed.

"trevor can you pleas.." i cut him off

"you want me to tell you want she said don't you" i say

"yes please" he asked

"ok" i say

i think he should know. because he loves her and she just got here and i think there dating.

i told him everything and lets just say that kian can be emotional. so by the end kian had a few tears after.

"kian its ok" i say

"its not ok she wants to kill her self" he said

"kian we just have to make her feel like see wanted" i say to him

"Trevor went did you get so smart" kian said

i laugh a little

"so we will did with her tomorrow because she kinda sleeping right now" i say

"ok thanks trevor she really means a lot to me" he says

"i can tell" i say

"well I'm going to go to bed" kian said

"same night" i say back

"night" he say and leaves I'm guessing to his room.

i go to my closet and change into pj pants and a random shirt.

i then hope in bed. couple of minutes later i was asleep.