Poems of a Life..

My Promises..

I promised to never leave,

But now I don't even wanna live..

I promised to always smile,

Even if it's just a damn mask..

I promised to never lie,

Even if it was itself a lie..

Just to draw a damn smile,

On your faces,

Even if you all are wrong and I'm right..

I promised to keep my promises,

But right now I wanna die..

Because I'm tired from trying..

Because I tried to keep you all smiling..

Keeping myself away from disappointing..

They are all lies because I'm maybe not right..

They are all smiles because I'm maybe putting on a facade..

They are all indifferent because I don't know who am I..

I don't know if I know them but I know that they know me,

Because I don't know their names doesn't mean I'm not real,

Or maybe I'm not real because I'm just ill..

Ill from life, tired from my promise..

You think you're right because I'm apologizing,

But I'm apologizing because I think I'm right..

I don't know who's myself like I know who's that girl,

But between us.. I'll always be that one girl,

That girl that you love and like..

But I don't like her because she's just a lie,

Because in front of you I always have to smile..

Like an obligation you give me,

Like an order you order me,

Like a lie you give me to recite,

Like a damn lie you give me to recite..

Right now I need rest,

From all this thoughts..

But my mind can not rest,

Not after this, not anymore..

I held my hand on,

but no one took it..

Because they all stare down at me..

Because I'm just a shit under their feet..

And yet i promised, here, in front of you,

That I'll always keep smiling,

Untill the end of my thread...

The End...

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