I'm Sorry.

9. Many Years Later

Lilly's POV
So, I am currently getting ready for my graduation party. It was going to be at my grandparent's house for a big pool party. All of my friends are going to be there. I invited the boys are they were coming which was great. With all the touring and such the guys have still been able to continue to talk to me, except Harry. It was great and they even were coming to my graduation. And then two weeks later we would have my party.

Graduation Night
It was graduation night and I was Valedictorian and graduated number one at my school. I was happy and life was good. I didn't have a boyfriend, but I didn't need one. I made a speech and the boys were in the stands (in disguises) and I was first to graduate and the last to throw my cap. My uncles and aunts where there, but not my grandparents. My grandpa died from his diabetes a week after my eighteenth birthday and my grandma died from a heart attack a week later.
Life was okay and perfect. I started a YouTube career and things were better and fun. I saw my very first Student Council advisor at my graduation and we took a picture. The same with my friends and the boys. I was happy.
Two weeks later it was my party and everyone shows up. The boys arrived and while I was getting more snacks a voice said, "Hi."
I turned around and almost dropped the bowl I had saying, "Harry..."
I locked eyes with him and he said, "Lilly."
I stood up straight and said, "What are you doing here, I thought you would be with your girlfriend."
He said, "Publicity stunt. I publically broke up with her a month ago..."
I was cutting up watermelon and I said, "Okay, it's not like I keep tabs on you, Harry. Now, if you will excuse me, I have guests to attend to."
He asked, "Where's your mum?"
I said as I brought the bowl out to the table outside, "Died a few weeks after you broke up with me."
He said accusingly, "Why didn't you tell me?"
I went back inside to grab more sodas for the cooler saying, "You never took my calls, never replied to my texts, never replied to my emails. You cut off communication from me so I suspected you didn't want to talk to me."
He asked, "Did the lads know?"
I grabbed some sodas and put them in the cooler saying, "Yes, they did, considering they actually talked to me. They helped me with the funeral as well."
He asked, "Your dad?"
I sighed saying, "Was kicked out by my mom the day I got home from London, haven't seen him since the funeral. Don't plan on seeing him."
"Grandparents?"
"Grandpa died from a low from diabetes a week after I turned eighteen and grandma died a week later from a heart attack."
He aaid, "I'm sorry, I didn't know."
I faced away from him saying, "Yeah, you don't know. You weren't around and you cut off communication from me. Now, what are you doing here Harry. I invited the other lads of One Direction, but not you."
He said, "I miss you..."
I scoffed saying, "Two years! Over two years you couldn't think to call me, to communicate in any way with me! That is a bunch if bs!"
He said, "I'm sorry, okay, I was scared. I didn't want to get caught by the fans, it would have ruined me and the lads career! Management already found out!"
I said, "It's too late for sorry. Over two years too late. The thing is Harry, you don't think! I loved you, but you just tore my heart to shreds. In that relationship it wasn't the fans who would tare me to shreds, it was you who did. So get the hell out of my house and never come back!"
I was livid and he said, "No. I was stupid to let you go and I'm going to win you again..."
I said, "Go to hell, Harry!"
He said, "Three songs, that's it!"
I said, "No."
"Two and a half."
"No."
"Two."
"No."
"One and a half."
"No!"
"One."
"No."
"One."
"No! Now get out of my house or I will call the police!"
He came close to me and said, "One song and things will be as it should. I won't ever talk to you again, I won't ask you to be mine again. Just one song..."
I said, "Then you'll leave me alone?"
He nodded reluctantly and I said, "Fine, one song. Make it quick!"
He nodded and pulled me out the the backyard. The whole band was set up already and I asked, "What the heck?!"
Harry sat me down in front and said, "Please." I sat down, crossed my legs, and folded my arms. I wasn't happy about this, one bit.
The music started and I instantly recognized the song.
"So your friend's been telling me
You been sleeping with my sweater
And that you can't stop missing me
Bet my friends been telling you
I'm not doing much better
'Cause I'm missing half of me
And being here without you
Is like I'm waking up to
Only half a blue sky
Kind of there but not quite
I'm walking round with just one shoe
I'm half a heart without you
I'm half a man at best
With half an arrow in my chest
I miss everything we do
I'm half a heart without you
Forget all we said that night
No it doesn't even matter
'Cause we both got split in two
If you could spare an hour or so
We'll go for lunch down by the river
We can really talk it through
And being here without you
Is like I'm waking up to
Only half a blue sky
Kind of there but not quite
I'm walking round with just one shoe
I'm half a heart without you
I'm half a man at best
With half an arrow in my chest
'Cause I miss everything we do
I'm half a heart without you
Half a heart without you
I'm half a heart without you
Though I try to get you out of my head
The truth is I got lost without you
And since then I've been waking up to
Only half a blue sky (Only half a blue sky)
Kind of there but not quite
I'm walking round with just one shoe
I'm half a heart without you
I'm half a man at best (Half a man at best)
With half an arrow in my chest
'Cause I miss everything we do
I'm half a heart without you
Without you
Without you
Half a heart without you
Without you
Without you
I'm half a heart without you"

Harry took the lead on the song and the boys back him up. He took my hand and kneeled down on one knee in front of me. He finished the song saying, "Lilly, I'm sorry for all the pain I have caused you. I was stupid to leave you and I never want to leave you again. I love you, I loved you since you sang on that stage in Sheffield. I love you and I will spend forever trying to make up the pain for you. I'm sorry for everything and I know you won't forgive me easily, but I am begging you for a second chance..."
I looked at Niall and he nodded. I looked around at everyone and they were waiting for my answer.
I looked at Harry finally and said, "I-I... I'm sorry, I can't." I ripped my hand from his and ran to my room crying. Bailey followed me and I said, "How does he expect for me to be with him after all of the pain he's caused me?!" She said, "He said to me, the biggest regret he has was leaving you..."
I sobbed harder and Niall came in and hugged me. He said, "We have to get going. Concert tomorrow..."
I asked, "Am I making the right choice, Niall? Am I making the right choice to say no the the only man I truly love and to say no to everything I could have ever wanted?"
He said, "Listen to your heart, Lilly."
I said, "It was my heart that got me into this in the first place! If I would have listened to my head I wouldn't be in this situation!"
He said, "But if you listened to your head, we would never have been friends. A lot of things wouldn't have happened if you didn't take that leap of faith. We leave tonight at 7... Congratulations, by the way..."
He handed me a card and Liam and Louis came and gave me a hug good bye.
I heard them drive off and I opened the card. It was two tickets for tonight on the same flight with two plane tickets and two backstage passes.
I continued the party and it ended at five, I took a long hot shower. After Bailey took her shower, I talked to her saying, "I have two plane tickets, two backstage passes, and two tickets to their concert tomorrow. What should I do, B?"
She said, "Follow your heart, if you still love him, go after him."
I said, "I don't want to have my heart broken again, though."
She asked, "How will you know if you don't try? Take a leap of faith and know that He is there to guide you."
I nodded saying, "So ultimately, I can either go or stay..." She nodded reluctantly.