i should've known - enemies to lovers || sim jaeyun

1 (re-written)

3 years ago, september 25th 2020.

"i'm moving to seoul,

"and i think it's best if we take a break."

i went silent for a moment before chuckling softly. i grabbed his hand and smiled. "what are you saying? come on, let's go have lunch togethe-"

"i'm serious." he forced his hand out of my grasp. "i'm breaking up with you." he said. his tone sounded serious.

"i got accepted into a survival show, i'm going to fufill my dreams." his face was completely blank as he spoke.

"i know it hurts, and it hurts me too, but it's for the better."

"i'm sorry." he said. but i knew that not one bit of him felt bad.

i kept staring down at the grass of the local park. wondering what my response should be to all this, but I couldn't even think straight.

"say something, please." he waited for an answer, but i couldn't even form words.

i heard him let out a deep sigh. he looked away, slipping both his hands in his pockets and walking past me. i felt my heart tighten. i felt like i just got stabbed.

"so, that's it?" i finally spoke.

i turned around. "thats it? you're just gonna walk away? and- and what? forget about me? huh? about us?" my throat tightened as i spoke. i tried my best not to cry. but i couldn't hold back.

he slowly turned around and i walked up to him. i stared him in the eyes and spoke.

"how could you even say that, jae-yun? we've been through everything together, and not once have we thought about giving up on eachother." i sniffled as tears ran down my face.

there was a moment of silence, i can tell his expression changed.

"how.." i paused, trying to pull myself together, "how could you say that so easily? do i mean nothing to you?"

he stayed silent as his eyes searched my face. he tried to say something but couldn't seem to find the right words. i looked away and wiped my tears.

"why don't you give us a chance? hm?" i looked back at him. "may- maybe nothing will ever happen between us, you know? i could still visit you."

i continued trying to change his mind but he didn't respond. he just kept staring into my eyes.

at that moment, i just hoped that he would snap out of it and suddenly hug me tight, apologizing while crying.

i hoped that he would grab my hand and bring me back to his apartment so we could spend another day together, continuing as a couple.

i really hoped that things wouldn't end between us.

but of course, he instead turned around and continued to walk away.

my heart broke into a million pieces.