Runaway

Then

Daddy just hit me again, it hurt, a lot... but mommy didn't help me, she wasn't even there, i think she was paying the bills again... is that how everyone pays them? Are they really that much? The pain on my body is driving me to leave more and more, but I know I can't... I wouldn't survive... these people are my only hope... and I don't like that... Rowan is crying again, they hit him aswell, it makes me sad... his cries are like music to their ears... I sit in my room, I found a notebook in the streets, this is my diary now, I'm gonna use it so I can show the police when I grow up.

Pain.

Pain courses through my body, a strong sense of anger and sadness pulsing in my veins, this isn't normal, is it? I've seen out of the window, the neibours daughter, Lily, she lives a nice life, I see her eating with her family through the window, smiling, she notices me through her own window sometimes, we share silent conversation, I always try to ask for help, but she never gets my signals, she's not like me, she's not hurt. She's the only one ever nice to me, she's the only one I see smile... there's not much competition anyways...

Hurt.

*1 year later*

Everything's changed recently, Lily doesn't smile anymore, I always wonder why, but I don't ask, that's what would get me beaten. Does she get beaten? Or did something else happen? It's cold, always cold, mommy is always sad, daddy is always scared, and I don't know why, am I being naive? What's going on that I don't know? I still have that book, It's almost full but that's the point of a book, it teaches us that not everything lasts forever, it has a start and an end, like life, it ends eventually. We can't change that, but I can change how to live my life.

I dont want to live like this anymore, getting beaten isn't how I want to live.

I will escape