Duke's wife

Chapter 142

To be by her side, to love her, is to drive her to death.

Still, he was glad she held him. I shuddered at my terrible greed. I sneered at her and yelled at her for her foolishness in not giving up, knowing full well that my heart would lead her to ruin.

"Why wouldn't you let it go? Why?"

"...... What?"

"Why don't you like the cursed monster when it says it will take care of itself? Isn't it more difficult to cling to them and beg for affection?"

At my words, she shrugged her shoulders as if she was about to cry. I laughed coldly at her.

Look at it. You're scared of death, too. So, I wish you had moved away from me when I pushed you away.

I glared coldly at her on purpose. Then she trembled and grabbed me again.

"...... I do not know. I don't know."

"Hah, you don't know?

"But I don't think we should let it go like this. My heart doesn't want to let you go, what can I do?"

With that, my resolve was shattered.

"...... Damn it!"

I let out a curse and hugged her. Then, roughly, he poured out his confession to her.

"I tried not to be greedy. I don't want it for a monster like me, I don't want it. I convinced myself that I didn't want you, I was just mistaken because I was tired of my long loneliness. ...... But it just doesn't stop. The more you hold back, the more my feelings for you grow day by day."

"...... It's a heart for me, .... heart."

"...... Now, to some extent, haven't you noticed? That is right. I've gotten better at you. I have set my heart on a subject that is a monster that should not dare to covet or be greedy for love."

I cried bitterly and vomited out my heart.

She looked at me blankly, without answering my confession, and then gently reached out to me with tears dripping down her face.

I turned my head and refused the touch.

She knew that any determination would crumble at the touch of her. I didn't want to leave any hope behind in my heart that I had to give up and give up.

I violently wiped away the tears that welled up my face and told her.

"...... So from now on, I will try to run away from you to the point of death."

"...... Why does that mean? Why do you have to run away from me?"

I was frustrated with my pathetic appearance, and I expressed my miserable feelings to her again.

If I don't get away, the curse on you will grow stronger, and I will die of anguish as I watch you slowly die.

I screamed and gently pulled her hand away. Then she shouted:

"...... Sure? How are you going to escape? ...... Do you want to abandon me?"

I laughed at her words.

'How dare I abandon you?'

That is not possible. I apologized to her, saying nothing but pathetic words about putting everything back to the beginning. Then he left the carriage alone and walked blindly forward.

It should have been this way from the beginning. I couldn't be greedy, wondering if her smile on Leon might one day be directed at me too.

But I foolishly coveted her smile and hoped her gaze would reach me. And the result of that foolish choice came back as a curse.