Yoongi woke up the next morning feeling confused.
Why did Jimin talk to him like that? Like he... cared. It was unfathomable to Yoongi that the main perpetrator of his abuse would suddenly have such a change of heart.
Yoongi thinks to himself, 'I deserve this hate. This is all a punishment for not being good enough' as he sit up in bed.
Looking to his left he spots his dresser, and remembered where he set his blade. It was a quick, spurr of the moment decision to hide it there, but it likely saved his ass during the interaction with Jimin. His eyes linger on the bottom edge of the dark brown dresser, debating on whether or not he should try to bring it with him today.
What if he has a moment and can't get a grip? What would he do without it? And worse, what would the members do if they saw him in the midst of a panic attack? And then again, what if something like yesterday happened again, one of the members seeing it. That surely wouldn't be good.
After another moment of deliberation, Yoongi finally stood up and walked over to the dresser, but grabbed clothes instead. He would play it safe today, he told himself. Slipping on his long sleeved, dark blue sweater and a pair of black skinny jeans, he wondered why he hadn't heard anyone moving around yet. Did he get up unusually early?
Walking out of his room and to the kitchen downstairs, Yoongi still hadn't heard any noise. He started to panic a bit, wondering if they were all going to jump out at him any second. But they didn't, and the silence grew eerie as he checked the rest of the house.
When he was done looking through the whole apartment, he finally checked his phone.
In it was a text from Namjoon, explaining that he tried to get the members to wait, but they insisted on leaving super early because everyone but Yoongi was awake. Yoongi felt the wave of disappointment wash over him, but thought, who am I to be upset? I was the one who kept them waiting.
So, dreading the groggy weather, he slid his coat on to begin walking to the studio.
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