𝙃𝙚𝙖𝙡𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙃𝙚𝙖𝙧𝙩𝙨 ||Complete

Chapter 16: Unrequited love

Lisanna's P.O.V.

I was walking in the area to clear my mind. It had been quite some time now and I debated on calling him. My memory bank was short spammed on what happened those days. I finally experienced the emotional turmoil the blonde had deep down. I missed him as a friend and not a love interest but apart of me was lying to myself. I hate to admit it but that man deserved happiness. There were times I wanted to be selfish and take him but why be a home wrecker when I can find my own if I tried? I head over to the swinging chains and dialed his number.

After a few rings Natsu's voice came through the phone. "Hello? Natsu are you busy?" "Lisanna?! How are you? I haven't seen you in a while not since the wedding yesterday! Hahahaha! It was fun!" I can feel his smile from the other line. "Yeah! I loved every waking moment! Can you meet me at the park? If that's okay. I would like to discuss something with you? I'm fine!" I heard some shuffling and him grunting putting maybe a box down? "Okay! Sure. I'll be there soon!" I felt relieved he didn't reject the offer and I can finally receive closure.

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Central Park

Natsu arrived and he looked different. I expected him to dress nice but he seemed comfortable in his black pants, long darkish sleeve tight muscle shirt, boots and red striped dragon belt? 'Maybe he likes dragons? That's new never seen that before!' I think to myself and noticed his features, his hair was spiky but flatter messy skin sun kiss tan and his eyes were expressive, the green reminded me of a deep luscious forest. His grin was toothy and radiant his best trait of all. "Lisanna? Are you okay?" His voice was deep and playful making a blush coat my cheeks snapping me into reality.

"Y-yeah. I'm fine! Let's go sit by the swings!" I suggested coughing awkwardly. He shrugged and followed me as we sit together. I took a deep breath and wished he'd at least say a compliment of my dress but I guess he's being respectful. He does have a girlfriend so it's understandable.

"Soooo... what's up? How are things?" He started the conversation first and I smiled swinging my legs back and forth gently slow. "Nothing really! I...I wanted to apologize for the way things ended in our relationship. It was pretty bad and I'm sorry for how I acted. I see now that you're a wonderful man and you deserve to be loved and cherished just like us. Men shouldn't be thrown or used like trash. You have feelings too... I was selfish and jealous maybe I am with how I feel towards you. Do you ever regret leaving me? Are you happier with Lucy?" I asked despite knowing what he'll say I can try to be cope with the outcome. "I just want you to know I still love you but I won't act on it."

He's silent and I can tell he's hesitant about the questions almost answering red flags. "Oh. How long have you felt this way? Well, sometimes I think back to how happy we were but then there's always a reason on why things end the way they do! I guess I was hurting but I should be apologizing. I did some messed up stuff to you too. Regret leaving you? Of course not! The times we had will always be with me! As for her..." His cheeks warmed and he rubbed his head trying to fit on the swing. It made me giggle.

"Yes. She makes me happy! I've never really loved someone so much as I do with her. It's like I tested the waters and learned what love really means. I can't believe I'm about to have another baby! It's honestly scary! I'm thinking of proposing soon... I haven't gotten that far with the plans yet! Wait... you love me? You mean romantically or friends?"

"...Romantically. If you would like to be friends I can try to live with that but I'm glad to see you smiling after all that pain you went through! It's a nice feeling to see." I was being bold but I had confidence like my older sister. Although he makes me nervous. The jealousy was resurfacing but I didn't show it. Lucy was a lucky woman she has it all unlike me. I suppose things like this weren't meant to be. She changed him he was a man now.

"I see! I'd rather be friends with you? I don't want to hurt Lucy and lose my family in the process of doing so. I'm sorry. I do understand." Natsu shows his fangy teeth and I sighed quietly. My heart was broken but I was able to live with this. "We can be friends! I would like that!"

We both smiled at one another and share a very intimate hug. I felt so small compare to him. His arms wrapped around me. I cried in his shoulder. I can feel his palm rubbing the back of my head. I just needed his comfort it hurt so much. I hated this but I have to be strong and accept I'll never get his love the way I want.

This was a feeling of emptiness and dread that you don't know what you have until it's gone heartbreak. We stayed like that for a while and he whispered he was sorry and that I'll find someone eventually. I didn't want to find anyone only he understood me and I was more familiar with him. I told him I'll let him go when I'm ready. He nodded understanding. "Did you ever regret being with me?"

"No. I loved you with all my heart. I couldn't stand how that played out with us. It was horrible!" I broke down and he wiped my tears away and let me cry. I was embarrassed by how much I'm sobbing. I had such a miserable life without him. I never realized how precious he really was to me.

Talk about karma kicking me every step of this healing journey. 'I don't think I'll ever recover from this... I lost him to her and I'm the one who has to suffer... why couldn't we get our happy ending?' I ponder and we departed. He smiles one last solemn smile and walked away. I stood there as gushes of wind blew as he leaves me with a shattered heart of unrequited love.

"I love you... goodbye Natsu."

"Goodbye Lisanna..." He looked back waving with a light grinning face and that was the last time I'll ever see him again. It was so warm as the trees comfort me with the silent air. As if watching a paper float through the breeze.

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