Same Love (Lesbian)

Fights

  In gym this week, we were in the weight room. I was a pretty fast runner and was really good at distance, I was thinking about being on track. I walked over to the bench press and added a couple 10 pound weights on both sides. I had some girl in my class spot me. I didn't want Danny to watch me bench press, I was pretty bad at it.

   I took the bar off the place and brought it down to my chest. I was having difficulty bringing it back up and I looked up at my spot. "Insult me. Now." I looked at her. She nodded and started firing off insults at me. I had done about 20 reps when I heard the word "faggot" escape her mouth. I pushed the bar away from me and up on the rack. I got up and pushed her into the wall, her head bumping the window. "What the fuck did you just call me?" "You heard me. Faggot." She repeated. I launched myself at her and pushed her onto the floor, pinning her down with my knees on her chest while I punched her. "Emmy! Emmy stop!" Danny pulled me off while the girl got back up. My shirt was ripped at the waist where there was so much self mutilation scars that hadn't faded. "Emily is emo!" One girl called. "She's a dyke!" Another chanted. "Awe poor baby! Are you gonna cry? Go die bitch."

    Shortly, Danny, me, and the girl I beat up were pushed down to the principal's office. I sat there pretty silent through the whole thing. My eyes were physically turning from brown to black.

     I got suspended for a couple days, which just meant more time for me and my "emo" self to lay in my room and carve shit into my skin. My mom yelled at me the whole way home. When I got in the house, I went to my room and slammed the door. I was still in my P.E. uniform and I tore my shirt the rest of the way. I took some of the chocolate from my stash and ate a couple pieces. I was upset and food is so much more better than humans.

      About 3, someone stood in my doorway. I didn't even look to see who it was. "Go away mom." I scrolled my playlist as Same Love rang in my ears. I felt arms around me, a soft sweet grip and a kiss on my lips. She took out my ear buds and brushed the hair out of my face. "What's going on with you?" She kissed my nose. "Beating people up, even though they deserve it and have for a while, not eating, not texting me back, not asking me to come over anymore. Can we talk babe?" She rubbed my back a little. I nodded slowly and pressed another kiss to her. "I love you." I mumbled into her shoulder as I went into great detail over what had happened the past few weeks.