Warrior|The hundred

Chapter 3 - Earth Kills

It's been two days, two days Jasper has been unconscious and moaning, you can hear him moaning from out of camp, I need my peace my silence, I cannot believe I miss the Ark, after everything that's happened at least I had Brook and silence, it was painful but it was better than hearing this boy die knowing there is nothing I can do to help. I've been talking with Finn so neither of us falls asleep taking care of Jasper but considering I'm literally falling asleep right now I don't think it's really working.
"Nat if you're so tired you can go rest, Finn and I will take care of Jasper" Clarke offered
"Sounds great" I said getting up and nearly falling over but Finn caught me
"Hey. You good?" Finn asked worried
"Yeah. Just a bit dizzy, I haven't stood up in like a day or two"
"Go sleep Nat" Finn said and I nodded and walked down the ladder, I know I'm not gonna get any sleep with Jasper's dying sounds so I sneaked out. I walked for about fifteen minutes till I saw the lake, the sun was rising already so I layed down to get my very needed sleep.
*Next Day*
I feel dirty. I haven't showered since we landed. I am used to not having the perfect showers but not showering at all is just gross. I took off my jacket, shirt, pants and shoes, then I got in the water, it was cold, refreshing. After about an hour I headed back to camp. As I got closer to camp I started hearing Jasper's moaning again. Damn it. I was about to enter camp when I was abruptly pulled back by the Bellamy.
"Yes?"
"Do you know how to hunt?" Bellamy asked
"Maybe. Can I leave now?"
"Nope. You're coming hunting with us" Bellamy said. As if you could order me around. Douche.
"No I'm not"
"You are unless you want me to tell Clarke and Finn you sneaked out" Bellamy said and I looked at him amused. Clever boy. But still kind of stupid for trying to blackmail me.
"You wouldn't" I said
"Wouldn't I?" Bellamy asked
"Who else is coming?"
I was sitting next to Finn again, we were dying of boredom when Clarke asked us to hold Jasper down which hesitantly we did right before Clarke started cutting the infected flesh. Eww. Jasper was yelling and falling in and out of consciousness, he looked as if he was dying which no offense to Clarke he probably was.
"Hold him still. I need to cut away the infected flesh." Clarke said as she struggled
"What does it look like we're doing?" I snapped. I hate seeing people in pain it reminds me of things I'd rather not remember. Octavia comes running in.
"Stop it! You're killing him." Octavia exclaimed crouching down next to me
"She's trying to save his life." Finn exclaimed
"She can't." Bellamy said. Always SO positive. Wells stands up to Bellamy
"Back off." Wells hissed
"We didn't drag him through miles of woods just to let him die." Clarke interrupted
"Kid's a goner. If you can't see that, you're deluded. He's making people crazy." Bellamy said. You aren't wrong but you didn't need to say it like that asshole. "Sorry if Jasper's an inconvenience to you, but this isn't the Ark. Down here, every life matters." Clarke snapped
"Take a look at him. He's a lost cause." Bellamy said not as harsh
"Octavia, I've spent my whole life watching my mother heal people. If I say there's hope, there's hope." Clarke said to Octavia after noticing her unsure face
"This isn't about hope, it's about guts. You don't have the guts to make the hard choices. I do. He's been like this for three days. If he's not better by tomorrow, I'll kill him myself." Bellamy said harshly. Not completely wrong but he's bluffing. Bellamy turns to leave
"Octavia, let's go." Bellamy called
"I'm staying here." Octavia said. Rebel. Nice.
"Fine. Nat we're leaving now. You coming or not?" Bellamy asked
"I am" I said as I got up but Finn stopped me
"Where are you going Nat? It's dangerous" Finn asked worried
"We're going hunting Flynn. I'll be fine"
"Be careful Mia, I'm serious" Finn said and I rolled my eyes
"Always am" I said before going down the ladder with Bellamy.
"What the hell is your problem?" I asked resisting the urge to shove him for threatening to kill Jasper.
"What are you talking about?" Bellamy asked
"You can't just threaten to kill Jasper" I exclaimed
"He's dying Natalia and hearing him dying isn't helping the rest to live" Bellamy said
"Well... Octavia cares for him. Would you really kill him knowing you'd be causing pain to your sister?" I asked knowing I either hit a nerve or he might change his mind, either way I won't let him kill Jasper.
"You know nothing about having a sister" Bellamy exclaimed harshly. Yes I do. Idiot. I definitely hit a nerve. I can't tell him I have a sister so I might have to take another approach.
"Look I may not know what it's like having a sister, but if I had one I know for sure I'd never want her to feel sadness or grief" I said as I checked my gun and placed back on its holder, Bellamy was quiet so we just walked out of the dropship. It worked I think? Even if it didn't there is no way in hell I'm gonna let him kill an innocent.
We had been hunting for about an hour or two, we were all taking turns and now it was Bellamy's
"Shh.... She's mine." Bellamy said getting ready to use his axe when twig snaps behind us then Bellamy throws his axe behind him, hitting a tree, narrowly missing a little girl who had stepped on the twig. The hell?
"Get him!" A delinquent yelled before the all the others banished, now it was just the little girl, Atom, Bellamy and her.
"Who the hell are you?" Bellamy questioned
"Charlotte." Charlotte said shyly
"Bellamy almost killed you. Why aren't you back at camp?"
"Well, what with that guy who was dying, I just... I couldn't listen anymore." Charlotte said and I kept my mouth shut, I want to defend Jasper's condition but I know I can't. I hate feeling helpless.
"There's Grounders out here. It's too dangerous for a little girl." Atom said
"I'm not little." Charlotte said and I smirked
"Okay, then..." Bellamy started pulling out a pocket knife and hands it to Charlotte. Is he an idiot or is he an idiot?
"But you can't hunt without a weapon. Ever killed something before?" Bellamy asks and Charlotte shakes her head.
"What kind of question is that? You're essentially talking to a five year old" I scolded
"Maybe you're good at it." Bellamy said to Charlotte before we all started walking to catch up to the hunting group. Maybe you're good at it? The hell is wrong with him? For a really hot guy he is very very stupid. After around ten minutes we heard an awfully loud horn. What the hell was that?
"What was that?" Atom asked none in specific
"Guys..." Atom started pointing at a weird yellow fog coming towards us
"Run. Now" Bellamy said and we all were running like our lives depended on it well because it did
"Come on! There are caves this way." Bellamy called as horn continues to bellow in the distance, I was so focused on not tripping that I barely noticed Bellamy, Charlotte, Atom and I got separated from the others and Charlotte wasn't doing a very good job at keeping up with us, out of instinct Bellamy and I reach for Charlotte and help her catch up, Atom was following close behind but trips just when we neared the cave. I tried to go back for him but Bellamy pulled me back into the cave. No. Damn it. I could have saved him from whatever the hell this is. Okay focus. Deep breaths. We'll be here for a while.
"Charlotte you should rest, we're gonna be here for a while" I offered seeing the child rubbing her eyes like Brooks did when she was tired but didn't want to fall asleep yet.
"Okay" Charlotte nodded as I took off my jacket. I thought of using it as a blanket to myself but she might need it more
"Here" I offered my jacket which she gladly took as she layed down, I subconsciously smiled remembering when I was really little sitting next to my sister's crib watching her sleep to make sure she was breathing while mom made dinner. I miss them SO much. Why can't something good happen just once damn it? I was over thinking till I finally fell asleep sitting next to Bellamy shivering a bit but it wasn't too bad. Last thing I heard was "Good night badass"
"No!" Charlotte yelled waking even the ghosts if any around. Bellamy and I rushed to Charlotte to figure out what was wrong to find her having a nightmare, Bellamy shook her trying to wake her up
"Charlotte, wake up." I said shaking her a bit myself
"I'm sorry." Charlotte said as she sat up
"Does it happen often?" Bellamy asked. She isn't gonna answer that to you dumbass, we quite literally just her. As predicted Charlotte sighs and keeps quiet. No one deserves to have nightmares often.
"What are you scared of? You know what? It doesn't matter. The only thing that matters is what you do about it." Bellamy said and both Charlotte and I looked at him in complete confusion
"But... I'm asleep." Charlotte said
"Fears are fears. Slay your demons when you're awake, they won't be there to get you when you sleep." Bellamy explained
"Yeah, but... How?" Charlotte asked
"You can't afford to be weak. Down here, weakness is death, fear is death. Let me see that knife I gave you." Bellamy said. That's a bit explicit for a child. Charlotte hands over the knife to Bellamy and he grips the knife tightly.
"Now, when you feel afraid, you hold tight to that knife and you say, 'screw you. I'm not afraid.'" Bellamy said as he hands the knife back to Charlotte and she grips it tightly with both hands
"Screw you. I'm not afraid." Charlotte said shyly
"You can do so much better than that"
"Screw you. I'm not afraid." Charlotte said more bravely and Bellamy and I smile and  Bellamy gently pats Charlotte
"Slay your demons, kid. Then you'll be able to sleep." Bellamy said before we all went to sit back down
"Didn't think you could be a softie" I teased
"I am not" Bellamy said shaking his head
"Whatever you say Bellamy" I said
"Good night Nat"
"Good night Bellamy".
*Next Day*
I started waking up, I didn't feel cold which is weird 'cause I'm pretty sure I gave my jacket to Charlotte, I looked down at my body and saw a jacket placed on me, Bellamy's. He was sleeping next to me, he looks way too peaceful and hot to be the same person who just a day ago threatened to kill an innocent kid. Since both Bellamy and Charlotte are still sleeping so I just went back to sleep.
"It's all clear. Anybody out here? Jones?" Bellamy yelled as we walked out of the cave.
"Good job with the yelling, the grounders are so gonna find us" I said and he rolled his eyes
"We're here!" Jones yelled and we ran towards them
"Lost you in the stew. Where'd you go?" Bellamy asked
"They hid behind the carrots. What do you think?" I asked rhetorically and all the hunting group chucked as I felt the annoyed stare of 'our oh so feared leader'.
"Made it to a cave down there." Jones said
"The hell was that?" Bellamy asked. Is he like dumb or was he born blonde? For such a nice figure I thought he might have a brain.
"I don't know." Jones shrugged
"Where's Atom?" Bellamy asks and everyone just shrugs, Bellamy then ordered everyone to look for him, everyone went in pairs, I was with Bellamy. Around ten minutes later we heard a scream, it wasn't an adult's scream, it was a child's one. Crap. Charlotte. I ran without thinking towards the scream to find Atom laying on the ground, burns all over him. There is a large amount of blood near his neck, suggesting he's a dying. I hate seeing people in pain. I crouched down next to Atom to see if I could do anything to help which I probably couldn't but it wouldn't hurt to try.
"Son of a bitch. Atom." I hear Bellamy mutter as he crouches down on the other side of Atom, Bellamy looks at Atom as if he was analyzing him
"Kill me. Kill me. Kill... me." Atom rasped out and Bellamy and I just stare at him thinking what other options we have, Atom is gasping from pain and lack of oxygen as I see Charlotte approaching us as Atom begins to choke. Shit. I- I. What the hell do I do?
"I... can't... breathe." Atom rasps out barely audible just as I hear Charlotte say
"Don't be afraid." I turned my head to see Charlotte giving a pocket knife to Bellamy. I got a feeling she might have taken the message too literally.
"Go back to camp." Bellamy orders and the hunting party leaves with Jones making sure Charlotte walks with them
"Nat, you too." Bellamy added when he saw me still crouched down next to Atom with my thinking face on
"I'm not going anywhere"  Bellamy just nods as he bends back down
"Kill... me. Bell...a...my... pl...ea..se." Atom begs. I feel bad for him I really do, but I also feel guilty, maybe if I had shoved Bellamy in the cave and then ran for Atom he wouldn't be in this state. We heard footsteps approaching
"I heard screams." Clarke said as she walked a little closer to us with Wells and Finn to her sides
"Charlotte found him. I sent her back to camp." Bellamy says as Clarke inspects Atom then she looks up at us and shakes her head, Bellamy just looks down and nods, Clarke crouches next to me in front of Atom and puts the pocket knife close to his neck but her hand was trembling like crazy, she couldn't do it, even if she could it's a heavy thing to live with, that's when I knew I had to do it, I hate killing but it has become something so easy to me which I hate myself for but they aren't murders, they're innocent, they shouldn't have to live with killing someone. Only one more.  I took the knife from Clarke's hand softly and she looked at me
"Nat no. I-" Clarke started with her voice trembling
"Clarke" I said softly ordering her to let me while trying not to make her cry, Clarke just nodded as a tear slipped out. Deep breaths Mia. Nothing you haven't done before.
"I'm gonna help you, all right?"
"P-please" Atom begs again which makes me already regret what I'm about to do. It's a mercy kill. It's a mercy kill. It's a mercy kill. I repeated in my head as I pierced Atoms neck with the pocket knife, I didn't want to cry, my face remained normal almost emotionless which I was quite thankful for, I stood up but not without noticing both Bellamy's and  Clarke's eyes fixated on me with something I couldn't quite place.
"Nat you okay?" Finn said putting his hands on my shoulders. Why do you think you moron? I just killed an innocent kid. I may be kind of used to it but up there the people I killed were all guilty of some awful thing, Atom is- was innocent.
"I'm fine. We should head back to camp" I said with my face still not showing emotion and Clarke, Bellamy, and Wells agreed. About an hour later we heard the camp chatter as we walked in, I went out of public view to a tree right before I threw up, I couldn't keep it down, I hate crying, I hate how weak it makes me feel so I always push my emotions down and my body answers to that with nightmares and trowing up, as soon as I was done I started walking to the dropship when I heard someone crying so I followed the crying to find Octavia, before I could stop myself from irrupting I guess my big sister instinct kicked in
"Hey"
"Hi" Octavia said noticing me, Octavia's eyes were puffy and her face looked a bit red, that made my guilt increase so much more
"You know we're friends if you need anything I-" I didn't get to finish my sentence before Octavia hugged me and kept crying as I rubbed her back
"Did he die well?" Octavia asked
"Yeah" Not really
"Thanks for being here for me Nat" Octavia said as she calmed down
"Call me Mia"