Deep Cavern - A Poem Collection

Somebody I am

You're not somebody I dream about
Well, maybe I do
But that's only when I'm off my meds

I'm not a schizophrenic
I'm a bipolar, depressed, anxiety-ridden
Bisexual trans boy
But when I'm off the Risperdal
I think about you a little too much

I take two sleep pills
Melatonin and Trazodone
I never dream about you
I wish I saw your face in my dreams a little bit more
But I don't

Sometimes I imagine us cuddling
Your hand in my hair
And I get happy

I hope you think about me too
Maybe you don't
But I'll love you anyway

If we can't talk
I'll still survive
Even if I cry about it
I'm a crybaby

Maybe I do too much
Writing songs and poems and novels inspired by you
I won't stop
I'm just saying it
It doesn't change how I feel
Enhances it really
But oh well
I can only hope you do the same

We're not very different
But so different in every way
We've got similar interests
I love that

Our hair is brown
So are our eyes

We both stem from Europe
Hopefully, we're not related
LOL

I hope you see this
Maybe you'll remember me
I don't know
I can only wish