Deep Cavern - A Poem Collection

Anger Sadness

'Why do you start crying when you get angry?' because I love them. I love them so much, I can't keep my emotions in tact. I love them so much I hate myself for being angry. I love them so much I feel so much emotion and my life is everywhere. My life is shit, and when they're shit it's because I'm shit. I'm tired of being the shitty friend, the shitty child, the shitty lover. I'm tired of being shitty. I'm tired of acting angry and strong all the time. So, I break down. I'll start to bawl, just wanting to figure out what I've done so wrong that I got angry at them. I just want to connect with someone, but I'm so used to pushing people away I don't know how to anymore. I long for connection, so I cry. I don't hold myself back.

'Why?' I'll scream 'What have I done so wrong?' because it's always me. And that's not sarcastic. I'm always the reason why people leave. I promise, if they weren't worth my time they would have never watched my anger go to sadness. So, it's because I love them. I care for them with my entire heart. I ache for everything all of the time.