Annoying Neighbour || Lee Felix

Ch_38 Apology.

(Sooha's POV)

"Are you crying?" Felix asks, his voice deep and stern.

"No." I cannot look at him as I lie, but I know my slightly hoarse voice instantly gives it away.

With one swift movement, he grabs my chin and tilts me up to face him. I release a tiny gasp, not prepared for his action. His brows furrowed in a way I have never seen before, and there is a slice of seriousness in his eyes. And it does something to my stomach.

"What did he say? Are you crying because of him?" He whispered, slowly traces the moisture in my eyes with his thumb, his gentle touch contrasting with his low voice.

"No." I break free from him grip and push him away, creating some distance between the two of us.

"It is not because of him, or anyone." I finally look up willingly at him, holding eye contact with. "It is you!"

A look of shock washes over his features at my sudden accusation. And seeing him like that, I cannot contain it any longer.

"It is you! It has been always yo! You always made me cry! First of all you started ignoring me, treating me like someone you despise the mos!."

"It's not what you think. I-I can explain." He reaches out to me. But I step back, avoiding his touch.

"Do you know how hurt I was at that time? How I cried to sleep everynight, muffling it with my pillow because I was afraid someone would heard it?"

My eyes begin to moisten again as I let out all those pent up anger and frustration, which have been accumulated over the years. His eyes hold mine, reading the hurt in the brown orbs.

And as the memories, that I tried so hard to forget, resurfaces back once again, all those unwanted emotions that I once had to deal with come along, as if those were just yesterday's.

"And you disappeared without saying a single word or goodbye!" I have to pause for a second, my voice coming out shakily afterwards, "Then you came back, acting like nothing had happened!"

"Why did you do that, Felix? You knew that you were my only friend." My voice breaks at the end, so as my willpower to hold it, as a single drop leaks out from my left eye.

"One time you would be acting like you care, giving me false hope. Then you would shut away almost instantly." I let out in a soft whisper, I do not know if he hear it or not, not that it matters to him.

"It's not what you think." He takes a step closer, trying to reach out once again, but it causes me to back once again. So he just stands there, defeated.

"I don't care whatever your excuse is!" I spit out, harsher than I intend to, because of biting back a sob. "It will never excuse the fact that you hurt me!"

He sharply closes his eyes, a habit he always does when he tries not to cry, before whispering out softly, his voice barely audible.

"Soo, I'm sorry."

My breath is caught up in my throat. This is the first time after five years to hear that nickname again, from his mouth, the nickname that he gave. I turn sharply and run, not knowing where but just keep running where my legs take me to.

And you know what is even more crazier, that after everything, just one sorry is enough for me to forgive him.

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Hopefully I'll be able to complete this story soon!