𝐒𝐭𝐢𝐥𝐥 𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡 𝐘𝐨𝐮

oh to be

Oh, to have limps from birth
so I could utilise em
Oh how I wish I had a voice at birth
so I could communicate!
Oh how I wish I had an ear
that could hear!
Oh to be born with an eye
That could see!
Oh to be born with a mind
That's clear!
Oh to be born with the perfect chromosome
That doesn't make me an imbecile
Would that I had been "normal" from birth
so that people would consider me to be "human"
No
Not a burden
Not someone that needs assistance
Not someone that is pitiful
Not someone that can't do anything of my own

I want to be noticed.
For my true self,
Not as a burden
Their words never say it
They never say it
But their looks
Their indications
Their actions
All say that I'm a burden
That just a shame
That I'm a pity
A mere pity

I'm grateful for your generosity.
However, I'd rather not be pitied!
All I want is to be perceived as a
"Normal person"

What is normal?
Someone with a limp?
Someone who can perceive the harsh reality of the world with eyes that are more than merely ornamental?
Someone with ears that are capable of picking up the nasty words?
Someone with such clear thinking skills?
Someone with a flawless chromosomal makeup?
Someone that is normal!
What is normal?
I don't get it.

I'm not normal; is it my fault?
Is it my fault that I'm limpless?
Does my blindness belong to me?
I'm deaf; is it my fault?
I have an extra chromosome; is it my fault?
Does my flawiness belong to me?

No!
However, why
Why is this so harsh?
Why is everything in this world so cruel?
Why wasn't this intended for us?
Why is it that nothing gives us a sense of belonging?
All I want is to be included!
All I want is to be loved without having to consider its pity. I simply want to live my life as
a normal person because
I too am a human being with feelings,,
I don't want pity

I want to be grateful for the kindness of people
However, why is it based on sympathy?
Why am I the poor man?
How come I'm not the man?
Why am I the unfortunate soul?
Why can't I be the soul?

Why are you crying because of me?
Why do you consider my existence so burdensome?
Why does the mere fact that I exist distress you?
I never begged to be asked to live, that's all!
All I want is to survive.
All I want is to survive.
Let me survive.

However, as a person
In the same way that you view
other people as normal, so am I.
A normal person
I am normal too

However, why wasn't this universe meant for me?
Why must I make adjustments?
Why wasn't I taken into consideration?
Why am I only given consideration on rare occasions?

What I want is to exist.
not in the suit of an outsider.
It's not my fault.
This was not how I wanted to be born.

Is being alive truly such a burden?
Does my presence alone cause distress?