Keep Me Safe Y/n Routledge x JJ Maybank

part 3- "i was gonna kill her"

"It's jj" he says quietly trying not to wake the others. You get up to let him in and jokingly say "miss your bed already?" he chuckles before getting straight to the point. "I heard you crying y/n. i know you're not okay" he says while making eye contact with you. Your eyes started filling with tears again. Looking down, you shake your head and answer with a quiet "no i'm not jj". You felt Jjs hand on your chin pulling it up so you're look straight into his eyes. " you can talk to me
y/n. i knew you weren't okay from the minute i saw you" he says

You just stand there, not knowing what to say. Jj can sense that you're nervous so instead of saying anything else, he pulls you in for a hug letting you cry in his chest.

"i care about you y/n. i care about you so much. i was so worried that something bad had happened to you." he says taking a long pause to let you catch your breath before he says "what did she do to you this time?" letting go of the hug. He knows you too well, even after all of these years

You sit down on your bed motioning for jj to come sit next to you. You don't say anything. Instead, you lift up your shirt revealing the bruises on your stomach. "She never used to hit me" you say "now both her and her new boyfriend do". Jj looks at the bruises in disbelief. He notices that those aren't the only ones. He sees the cut under your lip which you hid with makeup previously. "I'm so sorry y/n" he says while touching the cut on your lip bringing your attention back to him.

"I was gonna kill her JJ" you say quietly whilst sobbing. You felt a panic attack coming. You got them regularly whenever your mom did something to you.

He pulls you in for another hug trying to calm you down and reassures you that everything will be okay. He says "Shhh. It's okay. You're safe now" You nod your head "i know" you say quietly while giving Jj a smile "it's just hard being back here with all the memories of my dad" you said. "Hey, it's okay. grief is a normal thing it can't just go away like that" he replied. You sighed. "i know" you pause " but look at john b, his dad has been gone for only a year yet he doesn't seem to be faced by it" you were trying to think of any excuse as to why you shouldn't miss your dad as much as you do. "y/n" he looks at you whilst putting his arms on your shoulders "trust me, john b misses his dad he just hides his emotions a little better than you" you laughed a little.

Wiping the tears from your face you ask jj "can i use your phone to call my brother tomorrow?" jj quickly replies "yes of course. doesn't he know you left?" you shake your head "i haven't seen him in years j, he managed to leave her ages ago. i'm mad at him for not taking me with but i need to let him know im safe" jj nods "yeah" he replies simply.

"anyways, you should probably get to sleep. you have school in the morning" jj groans "do i have to go?" he says jokingly. Chuckling at his response you say "i'll come with. try to get myself enrolled"
he smiles whilst giving you a little kiss on the forehead before walking out and closing the door quietly. It was weird. Jjs never kissed you before, not even on the cheek. You were probably overthinking it but damn you thought to yourself. It was reassuring knowing nothing had changed between the two of you. He was still there for you as much as you were there for him.

As you pulled the covers over you, all you could think about was Jj and how much he cared for you. How he said that he worried about you constantly. You know that it's hard for jj to open up about his emotions but he's always felt comfortable around you. You always reassured him that everything would be okay whenever his dad would beat him. You remember him crying in your arms multiple times when you guys were younger and you always knew how to comfort him.

You wondered if your cousin thought about you too while you were away. Or was he too busy with Sarah fucking Cameron to notice you were gone. Either way you didn't want to let your anxiety take over like it has before. You knew that John B missed you as much as you missed him.

Sorry it's short the next one is longer.