I am not ok
But I smile and laugh
I am fine enough to wear the mask
I want to scream loud enough for heaven and hell to hear my pain
And when I can no longer stand alone, I want someone to hold me and understand
My mind is a mess
I cannot think
I feel illiterate
I feel like an idiot
I wish I could explain this pain deep in my chest and mind
And I want to say I'm not ok
I want to cry until I have no more tears
But I also want to be ok
