If you could read my mind
You would cry
You would find that behind my sunshine exterior is a world full of darkness
Restrained screams of pain echo through the rooms that boom with repeated music
Behind locked doors hide the scariest memories and thoughts
Though, sometimes, they escape and haunt my whole being
You would find that sometimes I am terrified of myself while other times I hate myself with passion
And when you find yourself at the center of my chaotic mind, there will be a cage
Trapping a little girl
She is the asylum
The darkest and lightest version of me
Good, bad, innocent, sinful, broken, sad, traumatized
They all stay isolated
Locked away
Safe from the outside world
If you could read my mind
You would run away
You would have learned that the world scares me, but I am desperate for love
I put up huge walls and hide behind locked doors
And all you can do is wonder what I've been through to live in such guarded darkness
