Watching the Spring Falls (Spring Series #3)

chap. 08

chap. 08

Three days. It's been three days since then.

I'm not sure how I managed to survive those three days while looking at my unconscious father who's lying on the hospital bed. I couldn't sleep nor breathe properly. It hasn't sinked in for me yet. 

Within those days, I just stayed beside him. In the morning, I'm monitoring his status. And at night, I'm praying so hard for God to save him. 

It was a car accident. The truck driver who crashed into my father's car was so drunk that night. While passing on the cross road, the truck was being driven beyond the normal speed. The hit went directly to father who's in the passenger seat, while Manong Ramon suffered injuries as well. 

Nasa maayos nang kalagayan si Manong Ramon, pero si Papa hanggang ngayon hindi pa rin gumising. He had already undergone a surgery. It was successful, but it doesn't guarantee his safety. Ang sabi kailangan pa siyang i-monitor dahil posibleng magkaroon ng ibang epekto ang surgery sa kaniya. 

This is the most painful thing to ever happen to me. Being powerless. Iyong gusto mong may gawin pero wala kang magawa. Iyong kahit iiyak mo na lahat ng luha sa mata mo, hindi pa rin iyon magiging sapat para iligtas ang taong mahal mo. This may be the slowest possible way to kill someone, in the most brutal way at that. 

Simula nung nagpunta ako dito sa ospital ay hindi na muna ako pumasok sa school. I contacted my advisory teacher to inform her about my situation which she immediately understood. Si Kuya naman ay nagpupunta lang kapag gabi dahil madami pa siyang inaasikaso sa mga requirements nila. At sumasali pa sa iniisip namin ang pamilya ni Papa. 

For the first time since I've known Papa, I met his family. Pumunta sila dito kahapon para tignan ang kalagayan niya. His mother wasn't entirely happy after seeing his state. Iyong ama naman niya ay walang imik pero ramdam ko ang bigat na dinadala nito. May mga kapatid din si Papa. Isang babae at dalawang lalaki. 

Hindi ako sigurado kung tama ako ng pakiramdam sa kanila pero napansin ko na hindi nila kami gusto ni Kuya. Kung paano sila tumingin sa amin, puno ng galit at pandidiri ang mga mata nila. They kept on saying how stupid Papa is for getting involved in this accident. That if only my Papa lives with them, all of this wouldn't happen. 

Now, I also ask the same thing. Will Papa still be in this state if he hadn't met us?

Tinignan ko ang mukha niya na nakapikit pa rin ang mga mata hanggang ngayon. Para lang makita siyang natutulog pero alam kong habang humahaba ang oras na hindi siya nagigising ay mas bumababa ang tyansa na makakaligtas siya. 

I hold my father's right hand with my hands. I prayed to God once more as I held Papa's hand, hoping for a miracle to happen. 

Please, this will be my one and only wish to You. If You're here, and if You're really listening, please save my father. He's the only one we can hold on to at this moment. If he's gone, I don't know how I'm going to live anymore.