𝐍𝐈𝐆𝐇𝐓 𝐁𝐄𝐅𝐎𝐑𝐄 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐄𝐍𝐃

HYEONGJUN H.

"you know how much i love you, hyeongjun, right?" he spoke, cupping the teens face and pecking his lips.

the mentioned boy smiled happily and nodded. "of course, ray. i love you, too."

the problem? hyeongjun was 17. ray was 25.

the man held hyeongjun tightly in his embrace. "you didn't tell your parents about us, right?" ray received a slight shaking of the head.

"nope. we're both boys, ray, they wouldn't approve of it." as if that would be their biggest concern.

but that was what ray wanted to hear. a malicious grin slipped, his lips curving upwards.

"i assume they don't know you're not a virgin anymore?"

upon hearing this, hyeongjun giggled, pulling the covers up and hiding his face behind the blanket.

"no - but why would i tell them? they'd only ruin it for me."

ray nodded. that's what he wanted to hear. his hands roamed the teen's naked body, still warm from ray's searing touch prior.

hyeongjun cracked a smile once ray's hands wrapped around his small waist, holding him tight. "your parents are so unsupportive. i hate them.

but i gotta say, they created a masterpiece."

this made the teen smile even more, a faint blush on his cheek. "well, thank you.."

looking away shyly, hyeongjun couldn't help but giggle. ray took his chin and turned him so they would face each other again.

"anything you have to tell me?" ray suddenly said, his tone serious. it started hyeongjun.

his brows furrowed. "huh?" "you know, you never told me how much you love me."

hyeongjun sighed. "ray, you know i'm not great with words. i'm sorry..."

"care to demonstrate?" this surprised the teen, voicing out a confused "huh?".

and ray sighed, sitting up. "like, i don't know. would you let me cut my name on your thigh?" this surprised hyeongjun.

and as if ray had planned his, he reached into his bedside table, taking out a blade.

hyeongjun swallowed. "will it make you feel better?" "a lot." if that's what would make him feel better...

sitting up, too, hyeongjun removed the blanket, revealing his skinny legs, covered in scars.

"they're so pretty" ray groaned, leaning down to kiss some of them, nibbing on some fresh scars hyeongjun just added that morning.

hyeongjun let out a quiet pant, leaning back and propping himself on his hands as he blindly trusted ray. he wouldn't hurt him, right?

he just wanted validation that hyeongjun loved him as much as he loves him, right?

the sharp pain of the blade splitting his skin made hyeongjun hiss. ray was cutting deeper than expected.

"ray-" "don't worry, darling. i know it hurts." the man leaned down to lick at the R he carved into hyeongjun's skin, sucking up the blood.

hyeongjun had to admit that it was so disgusting but it was so good because it was ray.

the scene was grotesque, hyeongjun's blood dyeing the white bedsheets a horrifying shade of red, as the name RAY sprawled across his whole skinny thigh, topping some of his elder scars.

"doesn't it look good?" ray groaned, leaning up to peck hyeongjun's lips before roughly grabbing the teen's hair, forcing him to look down.

with a mewl, hyeongjun tried to remove ray's hand. "it is!" he squeaked. "it is! ray, please let go.."

the man did what he was told, thinking about something. "that wasn't enough..." he mumbled, confusing hyeongjun.

"not enough what?" "i'm still unsure if you love me... what would you do to prove it to me?"

why was ray so keen on knowing it? hyeongjun shrugged. "everything."

seemed like ray got an idea. "even jumping off that old TV tower we met on?"

that evening, it was a coincidence they met. both of them having planned on killing themselves by jumping off the TV tower in their city.

yet they talked it out, quickly falling in love with each other.

hearing that, hyeongjun stiffened. "don't know..." "so you don't love me?"

it was hard. hyeongjun shivered as he stood up, starting to get clothed, cringing at the feeling of his jeans being soaked by his blood.

"i do..." "then do that favor for me, darling. take a video for me, too. i'll visit you at night to look at it, yeah?" and hyeongjun nodded. "okay."

so he went.