Falling into Place - Forbidden Heart Series

23| It's Real Now

"How'd it go, princess?"

I looked up from the doorway. Jackson rose from the couch quickly and came towards me. I glanced at the spot where he'd been sitting. The indentation in it painted a clear picture of how he'd been while I was at the doctor's.

Knees bent with elbows resting on them. His dark hair was disheveled from the countless time he probably ran his hands through it. Even now the worry lines on his face made my heart ache.

We had a long talk over the past week about whether or not we should try to conceive. I knew his fears. They were the same as mine. If he got me pregnant, there was a very high chance that I would miscarry. He was worried about the affect that would have on me.

But this wasn't just about me. During our long talk, I voiced how worried I was about him. His main concern was me, and I loved him for that, but this was a marriage. We were partners. Even though he said he would do this if I was sure and it was what I really wanted, I told him that I didn't want to do it if it would hurt him like it would hurt me.

I knew what his response would be before he even whispered the words.

"Don't worry about me, princess. As long as you're fine, I'll be fine.

Ultimately, we decided to give it a shot. I made an appointment for today to have my IUD removed. Naturally, he wanted to go with me. Insisted on it. I knew this appointment was going to be emotional for me and I didn't want him to see me like that. Not when there was most likely going to be more breaking down in the future.

After a little arguing and some pleading on my part, he finally agreed to stay home. As long as I took Lanie with me. Which I was fine with.

"It went well," I answered honestly. I stepped into his arms, accepting the warmth and comfort he offered me. God he smelled good. He always smelled good. But after the day I had I took advantage and breathed the earthy scent of him in through my nose. "Thank you for letting me do this, Jackson."

He stroked my hair and brushed his lips against the top of my head. "I nearly drove myself mad trying not to get in my car and come after you, princess. I was so worried."

"I'm okay. I promise."

It was true. I was okay. I freaked out a little when my OB went over the risks of me getting pregnant one more time, but when she handed me the box of prenatal pills, the tears stopped.

I stared at the bottle and only one thought went through my head. "I wish Jackson was here."

I still think it was good not to have him here, though. If he saw me get upset like that then he may have talked me into waiting to have my IUD removed and that wasn't an option for me. Even after I agreed to adopt a child with Jackson, I still longed to get pregnant. I wanted a baby with Jackson. I wanted out baby to have his eyes and protective instincts. I wanted the baby to have my stubbornness.

I wanted our baby.

I pulled away from him and reached into my purse. "Look what the doctor gave me."

His eyes widened when he saw the large bottle. "Prenatal vitamins?" He took the bottle from me with shaky hands. He studied it before looking back up at me with watery eyes. "It's real." he rasped.

My brows drew together with concern. For a second, I thought his tears were because he was thinking about possible miscarriages. But I was actually the opposite.

"Jackson? What's--"

"It's real, princess." He sat the bottle on the table before clasping my face with his hands and kissing me until I was dizzy from the pleasure. "It's real. We're going to get pregnant. You and me."