Was it all a lie? (GxG)

CHAPTER 3

Tanvi

The girl I met that day, Anaya, is pretty cool. She made my day a little better with her corny jokes. She's a literature student, so we have some classes together. At least I won’t be all alone in those classes. She mentioned missing her high school friends. I didn’t really have any close friends in school. I miss Palak sometimes and wish I’d never told her about me, we might still be friends.

I've been trying to talk to Riri, but the moment she sees me she turns the other way. Is it possible that the person I know and this girl are two completely different people? Why would she say she doesn't know me? They just look so similar.

Maybe I’m just overthinking it. I feel like my head is gonna explode. Riri still hasn't replied to me. Maybe that's why I am overthinking so much. Every free minute I get, I jump on my phone to check if she has texted me and when she hasn't, I get upset. If she won't reply to me in a week, maybe I should move on. Afterall, we weren't together, it's not like she asked me to be her girlfriend. All we did was talking. What about those late night texts and calls, what was all that then? Ugh, what should I do? I shouldn't give up this easily? My gut feeling says it's Riri. That face, those laughs, I can't be wrong, right?

***

After dinner when I went to my room I decided to check one last time before sleeping if she has texted me or not. And to say I was shocked was an understatement. How can she do this, did all those days meant nothing to her. I don't even know her other social media accounts. She really deleted her profile. How am I supposed to find her now?

I laid on my bed and started crying. I know I shouldn't, I keep telling myself we weren't together. But it hurts, it hurts so much, she left without saying anything. For 3 months we talked everyday like a couple. How can she just leave me like that? Maybe it was all just a summer fling for her. I am an idiot for thinking it could've been more. Maybe it was just me who caught feelings and she felt nothing.

***

I don't know when I fell asleep while crying. My eyes looks puffy and red. It's still very early, I have three more hours before college starts. There's no way I can go back to sleep. But I can't move my body, it's frozen. So, I just stared at the ceiling, thinking the what ifs.

***

At college, I was standing at the entrance of the class, hoping to talk to her. I gave her my warmest smile, but she walked past me like I am invisible. I stood there for what felt like forever until a teacher came and asked me if I'm in her class, I nodded and she told me to get inside if I wanted to attend the class. I walked slowly when I reached her seat. She didn't even spared me a glance. Maybe I'm really invisible to her. I quietly went and sat in my seat before I start crying in front of everyone.

The whole class I was zoned out, I couldn't focus on anything. I don't know when the class ended. I was the last to leave the room.

I dragged my feet out of the room and went to the other class. I tried to focus but failed. The whole day I only understood half of what the teachers said. Get a grip on yourself Tanvi if you don't want to fail.

"You're not gonna cry again, right?" Anaya had asked me when our last class of the day ended.

I guess it was that obvious. I told her I'm fine. She also asked me to tell her what's going on so she can help. I said it's nothing serious. She didn't push it and I'm glad. I don't know what to say. I don't even know if she will accept me, I don't want to lose the only friend I have here and I feel better when she's around. I was lucky that my parents accepted me when I told them I am bisexual. But I can't say the same for everyone.