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I keep waiting for it all to be over but what exactly am I waiting for to be over? my life? I say I want 'everything' to be over what is everything?

I know I can't wait until the day I finally feel better. I'm always so down it's quite literally sickening. no one understands no matter how much they try to tell me they do.

there's no way they understand, I swear it sometimes feels like they take how I feel as a joke when there's nothing funny about it.

I guess me constantly hurting is just so hilarious. It seems like it really doesn't matter how I feel, with the way I'm brushed off as if I'm an insignificant piece of lint or dust.

It may not be true but that's how everything is in my heart and in my head especially. I want for it not to be true and I'm only being "dramatic" as always.

we'll see if anything changes, let's hope it happens sooner than later, I don't want to keep going through this.

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who hurt me fr? like why was this such a bad year for me? I know why but goddamn, heart was in pieces.

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