Gamer Boy {KamiDeku}

Jealousy? Why Am I Jealous?

Izuku Midoryia's Point Of View.

     It had been a couple of weeks in this new school, I made friends although I normally stuck by Kaachan and his group.

     It didn't take long before the old traits began to resurface. I would find notes in my locker, so many notes. I never really knew who was leaving these notes or why, but I had my suspicions.

     Monoma, he was in the class beneath me. Class 1B, it was for the less wealthy but still honorable teenagers, he was what, I thought, jealous.

     The notes were mean, pointing out physical features I couldn't control. Not only was he pointing out my insecurities but insulting my status as well.

     I sighed as I pulled out another note, 'You Don't belong here! Go back to your planet you freak!"

     That stung but it wasn't anything too bad.

     Another note fell and I picked it up, 'Useless Deku, you're way too short, your freckles are ugly, your eyes are too big, you look like a bug.'

     "Is this really necessary?" I mumbled to myself as I shoved the note in my pocket, ignoring the snickering down the hall.

     Yup, it's definitely that Monoma boy and his group of minions, their faces held nothing but enjoyment.

     I tried to look on the bright side, besides those kids there isn't anyone bullying me, I have friends, actual friends!

     Kirishima is always making me feel better with nice sayings and lifting my spirits up.

     Sero is cool and chill to hang out with if I'm overwhelmed, he offers me advice, even if it isn't any good the thoughts nice.

     Mina treats me kindly, always patting my head or sneaking me snacks in class, she is very energetic and her excitement is infectious.

     Kaachan is..well he means well. Sometimes he gets a little too aggressive when it comes to protecting his squad, even if he refuses to admit it, he loves us and we love him.

     Then there's Kaminari...He's a lot of fun and very funny, always making me laugh. Sometimes we play video games together but then just when I think we're becoming better friends, he distances himself, not from the squad but from me.

     Something inside made me feel envious when I saw Kaminari hanging and being friends with everyone else, except me.

     I tried to think of it as Kaminari being better friends with the rest of the squad because he knows them better, but when I try to get to know him he just pushes me away.

     He makes excuses up if he has to go.

     He will pretend he didn't hear me and ask someone else something.

     It hurts because I tried to be his friend, and when he is my friend he's an awesome one. Sometimes it's like he doesn't want to be my friend.

     As I walked past my locker, I saw Kaminari, I ran up to him. Even though he could be distant at times he was usually nice. My heart began to flutter as I tapped in his shoulder.

     "Hii Kaminari!" I said excitedly.

     "Heyyy Deku!" He replied matching my energy completely.

     YES! That's the Kaminari I love! No not love—I like!!

     We began idly chatting about anything and everything that came to mind.

     "And that's how I was electrocuted! For the second time." He said proudly as I laughed.

     I held my stomach as I laughed and noticed briefly that he was staring at me as a laughed, he looked happy. His eyes were bright and his smile was big as he watched me laugh.

     I felt something shove me down, thankfully I didn't fall as Kaminari caught me.

     "Hey! Watch it!" Monoma sneered, looking down at me.

     "You watch it Monoma, you pushed HIM!" Kaminari challenged.

     "Whatever, class 1 rat." He said annoyed as he walked past.

     "Is that the only thing you could think of?" Kaminari asked, annoying Monoma.

     "Kaminari... please don't, it's fine really," I mumbled.

     "But it's not, you shouldn't let him walk all over you," Kaminari sighed.

     Kaminari pulled me closer to his chest, he looked down at me and guided my chin up so I could meet his eyes.

     "Are you okay? He pushed you pretty hard." Kaminari asked as he inspected me.

     "I'm fine.." I said locking eyes with him.

     "Have I ever told you, you have the most beautiful eyes?" He whispered.

     A light blush spread across my cheeks as I was about to whisper something back, until someone said something first.

     "Denki?" A random voice asked as we both looked up, I was pushed away. It was a gentle push but enough for me to get the message.

     "Yes babe?" Kaminari replied.

     The words sounded unreal, at first I thought maybe this was a close friend.

     I hoped that this was a close friend, but it wasn't.

     Kaminari came up and initiated a kiss between he two.

     I felt like laughing AND crying, but I didn't do either, I stuck to staring, emotionless.

     "I'm gonna go to class now, see you later Kaminari." I lied.

     I didn't want to see him later, or maybe I did, I didn't know. My head hurt, so did my heart as a lump formed in my throat.

     Of course he's dating someone, you didn't think he could like you? Did you Deku?

     You're too ugly for anyone to love. He probably doesn't even want to be friends with you.

     I choked a sob, my thoughts weren't helping this situation. I rushed off not noticing the note that fell from my pocket.

     I wasn't going to class, it might not be a big deal to most people, seeing a crush date someone else. For some reason however, it was a big deal to me, it hurt in a different way. I didn't know why.. I had only met Kaminari a couple weeks ago.

     I made my way to a small secluded area under a willow tree. It was peaceful and nobody was there to watch, hear, or see me cry.

    It really wasn't that big of a deal, people face heartbreak all the time. I just didn't understand why it hurt like this.

     It didn't hurt this bad when my middle school crush played me and then humiliated me for the entire school the see. It hurt but for some reason not as bad as this.

     Denki Kaminari was taken, he was dating a girl, he looked happy. Why did I feel jealous?

     {HI!! This chapter was fun to write, I'm excited to write more chapters!! If you have any ideas of how you'd like this story to go, just tell me!! Have a wonderful day and make sure to eat and drink plenty of water!! 🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷}