Kashmakash

Part 15

Hm hugs Ks close to herself and sighs in relief, feeling at peace. Hm kisses Ks's forehead.

Hm: Hum ye sab kaise miss kar sakte hai... kash hum apki ehmiyaat pehle hi samaj jate toh... Hum sirf apke rehna chahte hai Karu... pr hum Anu se... Anubhav se bhi toh pyaar krte hai na. Ek pyaar bhulane se pehle, apse pyaar kr baithe toh apke liye wo nainsaafi hogi. You deserve better meri jaan. Sorry. Joh bhi humne apke sath kiya, you deserved to be pampered, to be loved when u were sick, but app akeli thi, humne bhi apko akela kr diya na bacha. I am so sorry.

Hm had tears in her eyes, she slept in the same position.

Next day, Hm woke up to see Ks straightening her clothes and moving towards the balcony.

Hm wakes up quickly and grabs Ks's hand.

Hm: Rukiye plz.

Ks turns around confused. Hm see's the look and instead of answering just hugs Ks tightly. Ks doesn't respond to the hug nor does she deny it. She stands there like a statue, allowing Hm to have her support.

Hm breaks the hug after realizing this, "Hug bhi nhi krengi?"

Ks: We aren't in that position Haseena. And, main thing, I have regained my mental stability. I don't need to be hugged and pampered now. You need it, you can have it.

Hm: You have gained your sanity back, but that doesn't mean ki aapko feelings nhi hai.

Ks: I never had them Haseena. Now, you are ruining my morning workout time. Anything you want to say or should I go?

Hm: Hmmm... Can we have a coffee?

Ks: I don't have coffee in the morning. But you can take one, your ammi kept one on the table.

Hm looks at the table and gets the coffee. Ks lights up a cigg and takes some puffs.

Hm: Ye adat kab jayegi apki?? It was better when you weren't sane, atleast you weren't addicted to wrong stuff.

Ks: Come on the main point Haseena. What I do with my life and health are my problems, not yours.

Hm is hurt by this but says, "Ok. I just wanted to say, I am sorry. For everything. I shouldn't have trusted Anubhav over you. Plus, mai apke sath nhi thi jab apko meri sabse jyada jarurat thi. I berated you and pushed you away to be by urself, I don't even know ki aap thik kaise hui. I am a very bad wife."

Ks doesn't say anything which makes Hm pause for some time.

Hm: Aap kuch bolengi nhi?

Ks: Haseena, I don't have any expectations from my family and you. Ik people are selfish and have their desires and explanations. Apko regret krne ki jarurat nhi hai. You were just blind in love. Now, are we done with this conversation Haseena? I have to do workout and go to office.

Hm just nods but before Ks could go away, she grabbed her hand. Ks looks at the hand and then at Hm, who looks at the hand as well, but doesn't leave it.

Hm: Wo... umm... apko wo... chot lagi thi woo... thik nhi hui hai.... Toh...

Ks: Kya aap thoda fast bol sakti hai plz. I have work.

Hm: Apkochotlagithijohthiknhihuihaisoappplzbandagekarwalijiyemereseaurnastakarkegharjaiye.

Ks: No thanks.

Hm: Ek min... apko samaj aya mai joh bol rahi thi wo? Jara batana toh ki mai kya boli.

Ks: Yes. You said, "Apko chot lagi thi joh thik nhi hui hai so app plz bandage karwa lijiye merese aur nasta karke ghar jaiye." What do you think Haseena? Ki maine apke sath pyaar aise hi do din mai kr liya tha? I was in love with you from the time I came back from London. Bachpan mai toh apne hi mujhe paal poske bada kiya hai, so u will know better ki hum kaise hai. And Ik you too... Hum apke sukraguzaar hai ki apne hume itna time sambhala, even when I was really a kid and when I was mentally ill. Pr, aab uski jarurat nhi hai. I have been alone for quite a long time now to not feel sadness from it. Also, I don't have breakfast. And I will bandage that thing myself.

Ks takes the final puff of the cigg and crushes the butt on the ground, but then, picks the ask and throws it in garbage as well.

Hm: Karu...

Ks: Karishma... Karishma Singh... Or you can call me KSR, like everyone else.

Hm: Still using R in ur name?

Ks: Its my identity, he made me who I am today. I am not going to ever remove that name from mine.

Hm: He is... leave it... Not the main topic, just come with me, let me change the bandage and you can leave.

Ks closes her eyes for a minute, but knows Hm's stubborn nature, so she sits down while Hm changes the bandage.

Hm: Dard horaha hai na?

Ks doesn't speak anything; she just turns her face towards the window and stares outside with a blank face. Hm gets a bit disappointed, but does the bandaging.

Hm: Here, done.

Ks: thanks.

Saying so, Ks goes towards the window, and Hm calls out to her when she climbs on the railing.

Hm: Rukiye... gir jayengi. First floor pe hai ye.

Ks rolls her eyes on her and jumps from there. Hm is shocked and runs towards the railing and peeps down to see Ks dusting off her clothes. Ks looks up and with a blank face, walks away towards her car. Hm stays there, watching her car till it disappears.

Hm: Kya kare hum apka.

Later on Ammi and Haseena are eating as abbu is out for work.

Ammi: Tera fashion ka sab kaise chal raha hai?

Hm: Acha hi hai. Meri boss mujhe konse toh company mai bhej rahi hai, for designing their company's logo and custom clothes for employees.

Ammi: Ye toh badi aachi bat hai, konsi company?

Hm: Pata nhi ammi, new company hai, recently hi aayi hai, pr unki owner ne pehle bhi bohot badi badi companies' khadi ki hai aise boss keh rahi thi. Pr owner badi shant aur young hai aise sunne mai aya hai.

Ammi: Kab se join karegi phir tu?

Hm: Kal se...

Ammi: Hmm... waise, karu bitiya kaisi hai? Aayi thi na kal bhi?

Hm tells Ammi everything that has happened.

Ammi: Ek baat batau Haseena. Wo baachi bohot neek hai. Uske dil mai koi paap nhi tha kabhi aur na hi kabhi hoga. Tune jo uski life jahanum banake rakhi hai, sudhar ja. Aur ye joh bol rahi hai na, she deserves better. Toh uske liye, dusra koi better aye, isse acha tu hi better ban ja na beta.

Hm: Hum... sab itna aasan nhi hai ammi.

Ammi: Aur meri beti kabse aasan cheeze chunne lagi?

Hm smiles at this and after some chit chat, they sleep.

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ENJOY!!!!!

Any suggestions on things Hm should do for Ks before she forgives her?