Manage My Heart (Book 1)

Chapter 2

Ruby sighed as she tossed and turned. She couldn't sleep, the kiss replays in her mind like it's on repeat. The way Mel's lips moved, the way her tongue felt against hers. She rolls over and grabs her phone.

My Rube 🙊 - I can't sleep

My Baby 🙈 - gee, i wonder why? Already missing a certain dark haired manager? 😏

My Rube 🙊 - shut the fuck up!

My Baby 🙈 - u could always just text her? 🤷

Ruby thought about it for a second. Should she? She was still her manager, it just a kiss....and a make out session....damn it. She sighs as she exits Kylie's messages and opens Mel's.

Rube 🧸 - I can't sleep

Music 🎤 - everything ok?

Rube 🧸 - I'm gonna be honest, I can't stop thinking about that kiss

Music 🎤 - aw damn Rube, I'm sorry. I didn't mean to cause any inner turmoil or issues

Ruby sighs. Because of course Mel would blame herself. But it wasn't her, it was Ruby herself. She was so confused. She's never felt this way before. Not even over a boy.

Rube 🧸 - it's not your fault, i promise

Music 🎤 u wanna talk about it?

Rube 🧸 - not through text

Music 🎤 - on my way

Ruby sighs and sets her phone down. She sits crossed legs in bed, she keeps tapping her leg, waiting for Mel to knock. She hears shuffling in the halls before there's a knock at the door. She goes and opens it. "Hey." "Hey. I'm sorry Ruby, I didn't mean to cause any problems for you. I just wanted to help." She shrugs. Ruby shakes her head. "It's nothing. It wasn't your fault. I just.... I've never...." She glances down the hall to see if anyone is around. Mel looks the other direction. "Maybe we should talk about this inside." She whispered. Ruby nods and opens the door wider for her. Mel walks in as Ruby closes the door. "Look, if it's really bothering you, we can pretend it didn't happen. Only if you want, of course." Mel suggested. "You wanna forget about it?" Ruby asks. A strange feeling fills her heart with dread. She wasn't sure what it was. Mel shakes her head. "I never forget a kiss. But if you want to pretend it didn't happen, if it'll help, we can." Ruby sighs. She wasn't sure if she wanted to forget it or not.

"I don't know." Mel nods. "Well, what do you know? How do you feel right now?" Ruby looks at her. "I don't know what I'm feeling, i just know that I don't want to forget it or pretend it didn't happen." She shakes her head. "Ok. Then we acknowledge it, yes it happened. There's nothing we can do now. But my next question is, what did you wanna do now?" Ruby sighs. "I don't know. I wish i did. I'm so confused." She goes and sits on the bed. Mel sits next to her. "I've been there. Questioned my sexuality for a few years. It took me a while but I'm here now. Are you questioning yourself?" Ruby thinks for a moment. She's found girls pretty before, not in the way she wants to kiss them or date, girls are just pretty. But it was different with Mel. She's beautiful, no doubt. But she's also kind, caring, creative, loving, thoughtful, and that's just off the top of her head. But can she really see herself being with Mel? Their relationship was friendly and touchy, just like her relationship with Kylie, but can she see herself going beyond that? She tries to picture herself kissing and being with Mel in that way.

Mel could tell she was really thinking about it. She stands and rubs her shoulder. "Tell you what? Think about it, sleep on it if you want. And if you think that you are attracted to women, then I'm grateful that i got to help you realize that. If you end up realizing that you aren't. I apologize for the confusion." Mel smiles as she walks to the door. Ruby sat there and watched her leave. It's not that she was attracted to women, it was that she was attracted to Mel. She never thought about it till now but she's always been there, of course she has, she's their manager. Mainly Kylie's. Is she really going to cross that line? She's heard of actors or artists dating their managers, doesn't usually end well. Is she willing to risk their friendship for it if it doesn't end well? As more questions plagued her thoughts, she ends up falling asleep thinking about Mel. And maybe dreaming about what it would be like to be with her.