Not Waving, But Drowning || Lee Know Centric

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I stared at the empty food packets in front of me, and for a second there, it seemed as if they were staring back.

They were smiling.

Happy.

Happy that I messed up.

Happy I let myself go.

Happy that im slowly ruining myself by the second.

I quickly took action and took the packets from the floor and the table, and shoved them in the trash, cleaning all the evidence till it seemed like no one even walked there.

Expect that all the food was missing.

It seemed as if my body was leading itself, but I ran into the toilet threw up everything and anything I consumed.

Even after I stopped gagging, I couldn't help but repeat the tragic history and shove my fingers into my mouth, acid leaving my body.

And then I collapsed.

A part of me thought I had died,

but death wouldn't come to me that easily.

•*•

"Who's in there? Open up! I have to pee!" Seungmin whined from behind the bathroom door, banging on it.

I was quickly brought back to consciousness when I heard the younger's voice, and responded as casually as I could.

"Y-yeah! J-just wait!"

Wow, so much for being casual.

I opened the tap so I could pretend to be washing my hands or something, before closing it and opening the door.

"Oh my gosh hyung, how long does it take to shit..."

"Hyung, who did you fight in your sleep?" Seungmin's mouth was slightly agape as he looked me up and down.

Good job, Minho. Couldn't even look at the mirror?

I felt naked under his stare, but I couldn't let him know that.

"RESPECT YOUR HYUNG!" I yelled as I put him into headlock, making him screech and try to free himself while chuckling.

Distraction and jokes.

Those were the only two things who kept my cover going.

Wait,

not cover,

again, im not doing anything wrong.

It's just embarrassing to admit, that's all.