Bound By Fate

22. Emotional

I open my eyes and they land on Nadia who is seated on a sit at the bedside but has her head lying on the bed, her hand is clapping mine and it feels sweaty, “Nadia.” I whisper squeezing her hand and she wakes up.

“Heeyy.” She smiles sadly and I smile despite the pain and sore muscles. “I should be the one looking like crap not you.” I say and look at how sleep deprived she looks.

“Welcome back.” She stares at me. “I can’t believe you died, don’t you dare do that to me again.” she says laughing I guess to brighten the mood and I raise my hand to wipe the lone drop of tear off her cheek.

“I promise.” I tell her hoping my body doesn’t have other ideas. “So, what did the doctor say?” I am curious because everything in my chest felt foreign. “Does it mean I might be here a while?”

“She said it was nothing to do with the medication or the injuries, said it was all mental.” She tries to explain what she can’t seem to understand herself.

“What do you mean mental? Because it felt pretty physical to me.”

“Something about anxiety and panic attack at the same time.” She stands, “She will explain more, I am probably giving you what I think she said but didn’t, someone is here to see you.” She smiles

“Who?” I ask as I watch her walk to the door.

“I’ll let you two talk.” She says letting Leo in and walks out after greeting him briefly.
“Heey.” I greet as he further in.

“How are you feeling.” He asks after briefly placing his lips on mine and letting them linger for a while.

God, I missed that.

“Like my entire body was crashed by a track.” I honestly respond and he sits on the sit Nadia vacated. I take my time to let him in and his new Profound smile has disappeared again I miss it, his grey eyes look sad and his lips are as kissable as always but I get my thoughts away from that. “You look sad.” I finally break the silence.

“I am sad.” He genuinely says and I can’t help but feel guilty for the sadness in everybody’s face. “Am glad that you’re okay, I am just angry at myself for not being able to keep you safe not to mention come get you a little earlier.” His jaw is set and he looks really angry.

“Did you find the guy?” I ask and he raises his eyes to meet mine.

“We had him answer a few questions after getting you to the hospital and he had a lot to say.” He laces his fingers with mine blankly as he says.

“a lot like?” I search his eyes and he looks like he would rather talk about something else.

“He just gave us all the information we wanted about the Russians and the reason why Ivanov wanted you.”

“So he just snitched.” I am surprised how he can turn on his people.

“It’s crazy what people can do under pressure.” He says staring at my eyes.

“You tortured him?” I know he’s capable of that but I ask anyway, I once saw him chop a persons fingers off one by one just to get some information from him and it left me wondering whether I fell in love with him because I never saw that side of him and am not sure if I am ready to accept that dark part.

Its one thing to kill and another thing to inflict pain and like it.

“We did what we had to do to get what we wanted, why are you feeling sorry for him when he did all this to you?” He is confused.

“You killed him?”

“Did you want me to kill him?”

“I wanted to be the one to kill him, so where is he?” I ask avoiding his eyes boring into mine like he’s searching for something.