Bound By Fate

12. Fiona

“ Lexy begged us to let her be the one to tell you. ” Amy starts when I finally sit opposite them in the living room and asking them to start talking.

“ we should have told you when we found out but you already had a lot going on with your dad and the Russians.” Nadia continues and I try not to loose it and break the mug on my hand.

“ tell me for the start, how you found out until you decided to be selfish and make me look like a fool.” I say anger radiating off my skin.

“ you remember when we were meeting at the bar and you couldn't show up saying Ben asked you to meet that he had something to tell you.” Nadia starts.

“ yeah when he kept me waiting at the restaurant for three hours until I left.” I answer pinching my eyes shut from the hurting memory.

“ we decided to go to a restaurant nearby to have something to eat first since Lexy also called saying something came up and couldn't show up.” Amy continues.

“ go on.” I say curiously waiting to hear it.

“when we arrived at the we saw Lexy and Ben kissing at a table and we went there to confront them but found Mike already rushing out the restaurant, Lexy stood to follow him but Ben stopped her.” Amy continues.

“ classy.” I smile despite myself.

“ when we arrived at their table. I yelled at Ben telling him that he had the guts to ask you to meet up when he knew he was going to stand you up. Lexy tried to explain but i didn't want to hear it so I grabbed Amy's hand and stormed out of the restaurant.” Nadia explains and I am not sure whether I am more angry because Ben made me look like a fool waiting for him or because Lexy kept acting like my friend when she was screwing my boyfriend.

“ so she came after us begging us to let her be the one to tell you.” she continues a tear rolling down her cheeks. “ am so sorry max, we should have said something please don't shut us out.” she pleads angrily wipe the tears rolling down my cheeks.

“ I won't lie to you that I'll forgive you immediately, the pain is too fresh and the disappointment is too huge to ignore and pretend to forget. I have to sleep on it, just give me time.” I finally say walking to the door and pulling it open. “ I need to be alone.” I finally say and they hesitate before walking to the door.

“ again we're so sorry max.” Amy says before walking out and Nadia follows.
I shut the door behind them and I slide down until I am sitting on the ground placing my elbows on my knees and I thread my fingers in my hair.

It is to painful to forgive and I can't keep staying angry at them. I know their mistake was not telling me but they let Lexy keep being everywhere around me even knew that Mike had disappeared because of her but never said anything.

I let the tears flow letting all the anger out because I am so angry and disappointed. I trusted them.
***
I am staring at the movie ending and I watch as the characters have a happy ending, I can't help but wonder if I'll ever have one.

It has been hours since I had my break down and ended up going upstairs into my bedroom and taking a long shower to calm my nerves which worked. I finally ended up watch a moving in the den.

I hear the door being opened Andi wait for whoever is coming, a part of me gets a shiver a good kind of shiver when Leo goes through my mind and I think may be it's him but I smile widely when Fiona show up.

She's always jovial about everything despite her crazy lifestyle. Her make up is on point and her smoky eyes are making the amber pop. She is wearing a black crop top and a black skinny geans that defines her curves and has a guns and knives in place as always it's like she is never complete without them.