Sweet Little Girl

Fourty One

Hanaina's POV

I was supposed to go in for work today but I don't think I'm going to make it. I'm operating on two hours of sleep this morning. We had a pretty bad storm out last night and Nollani couldn't sleep from how scared she was. The storm did eventually pass and I thought she would fall asleep soon after, but I was very wrong. She started with her little theatrics and wanted to do anything and everything but sleep. At some point I was listening to her sing "Ba, ba, ba. Ba banana!", which drove me crazy but it did eventually help to lull her to sleep. I managed to get some sleep, before she woke me up again around 5am. I tried to get her back to sleep but she fought me to stay awake, so I just gave up. She also seems to be between headspace so she's really got me worked up.

"W'at that Mama?" She asks pointing at my hands.

"It's baby lotion." I say putting it on her.

"Baby ocean?" She asks making me smile at her mispronunciation. She sounds so adorable, I could almost forgive her for depriving me of sleep.

"No darling, lotion." I correct, emphasising the word lotion. "It's for your bum." I add.

"For bum?" She sweetly asks.

"That's right." I nod. "So baby doesn't get ouchies on her bum." I tell her, fastening her diaper.

"Ouchies?" She asks seeming very curious.

"Yes baby. Ouchies." I respond pulling her to sit up. I dress her in a cute Winnie the pooh onesie knowing she's quite little and won't fuss about the outfit. I'm about to clip the buttons on the onesie but she whines wanting to do it herself. It doesn't go very well. Her diaper seems to be getting in the way and I can tell that she's getting very frustrated. "Can Mama help?" I ask.

"Nuu! I do it." Lani whines, pushing my hands away and tries to clip the buttons on again. She manages to clip only one of the three buttons, giving me a little triumphant grin, very proud of herself. She doesn't bother clipping on the rest of the buttons obviously satisfied with the one she managed to do. I chuckle when she wiggles happily and the button snaps open. Nolani looks at me with a little pout making me bite my lip to hide my amusement.

"Ohhh no! What happened?" I ask picking her up.

"Diapey broke it." She says resting her head on my shoulder.

"It's okay sweetheart, good job for trying." I hug her patting her back. I choose to leave the onesie undone, otherwise we'll be stuck in this room forever while she tries to clip the buttons all over again.

I make her some food figuring that if I can get her full she might be easier to put to sleep. I make her eggs and give her a sippy cup of juice. She's evidently pretty hungry with how quickly she's eating. "Safe eating baby! Safe little bites." I remind her gently tapping her so that she drops so of the food in her fisted hand. She doesn't seem to listen to me, still taking big bites. I push her plate away opting to feed her myself.

"Nu Mama!" She whines, feeling very tiny. She bangs the table with both her hands throwing a big tantrum. I cave in, giving her her plate back and letting her do whatever she wants. She settles down feeding herself again. There's no point in trying to argue and reason with a toddler.

"Such a big fuss." I say brushing her hair away so she doesn't get food in it. When I try to have some of my own food, she climbs into my lap, now wanting my food. It's a struggle because evertime I reach for something she tries to get it from me. "Mama Ta!" Nolani yells trying to take my cup away from me.

"No baby, this is Mama's!" I tell her moving my cup away from her. "This one's yours." I show her her sippy cup, she takes her sippy cup drinking from it. She tilts it too much spilling some of her juice. Chaos after chaos.

I try to take a sip from my cup and she leans over holding onto the cup and eagerly suckles the side of the cup in hopes of having some of my drink. "Oh my goodness! Very greedy." I chuckle, getting her little hands away. I try to feed her so I can keep her distracted but she's way more interested in my cup. In all honesty I could've let her drink from my cup but I don't want all the food around her mouth in my drink. She groans and lets out a huge wail when she doesn't get the cup. "Mama's making you so upset, isn't she?" I coo bouncing her. She doesn't like me bouncing her, so she squirms trying to get off my lap.

I put her on the floor and she picks up a piece of egg she dropped earlier, eating it. I sigh letting her be. What doesn't kill them makes them stronger, I guess. I try to clean up all the mess while she's playing on her own. When I'm done I check on Nolani and she's curled up sleeping on the floor, her legs tucked under her, with her bottom raised. I coo picking her up and she whimpers softly not liking that I'm bothering her. "I know princess, I know." I coo trying to clean her up a bit before taking her upstairs.

I'm glad that she's finally asleep but I'm gonna need her to breastfeed because I haven't pumped and my breasts are sore. I remove my shirt before removing her dirty onesie, leaving her in her diaper. I then pick her up laying on the bed with her beside me. I get Lani to latch on patting her bottom firmly to keep her partially awake so she can feed. She stops suckling a few times so I encourage her to continue. "Come on princess, just a little bit more." I pat her bum. "I know you're so tired, but you need to help Mama feel better." I say switching her to my other breast. Nolani feeds for some time before making soft grunts letting me know she's probably very full. I pull my breast away feeling way better, wiping the dribbles of milk from her chin. I kiss her forehead, patting her back.

I close my eyes leaning in closer to her finally getting my long awaited sleep.