So one of my friends told me how to make myself throw up and I've been tempted to do it ever since...
I went to school today and it was way too overwhelming I fucking hate it...
I hate it...
I don't know what my fucking gender is I'm slowly getting into worse physical condition my lips are even paler and more chapped, my wrists are getting thinner but I've been eating properly, last winter I weighed 109 pounds now I weigh 111 pounds I only gained 2 pounds I'm not sure if that's healthy but I just feel fat...I know I'm not I really do I just can't help that nagging feeling that I am...
My friend is constantly obsessing over my eyelashes and my jawline and my waist, using me as a basis on how she should look, so she perceives herself as fat and ugly...but she's truly beautiful, I just can't get her to realize that...
No matter how much I try to make people understand that no matter your body type you're beautiful, they never understand that...
Also I really can't find anyone who I can go trick or treating with so I'm probably just wander around the block and hand out candy while at home...I don't think I'm prepared for going trick or treating yet mentally.
I have picture day on Wednesday so I'm going to try and look somewhat okay
