Okay I'm just gonna say this it doesn't mean that I don't feel empathy towards you guys but just don't take this to heart.
I AM SICK AND TIRED OF PEOPLE TAKING ADVANTAGE OF MY FUCKING FEELINGS, I AM SICK AND TIRED OF READING THAT PEOPLE ARE GOING TO KILL THEMSELVES BECAUSE THAT CAUSES ME TO CONSTANTLY BE ALERT AND READY TO TALK TO THEM BUT IT IS SO DRAINING I FUCKING HATE HOW MY ENTIRE MENTAL STABILITY IN THAT MOMENT DEPENDS ON IF MY FUCKING SPEECH WAS ENOUGH, LIKE I'M CONSTANTLY READY TO GO INTO PANIC MODE FOR ANY TIME ONE OF YOU IS ABOUT TO COMMIT BUT LITERALLY ALL MY IRL FRIENDS HAVE NO IDEA WHAT IS GOING ON WITH ME RIGHT NOW I'VE BEEN DISTANT AS FUCK.
MY BEST FRIEND KEEPS ON SAYING "If you leave I'll literally have a mental breakdown because everyone will start harassing me more" LIKE GIRL I GET THAT MY BEING THERE IS HELPFUL BUT I CANNOT GO TO SCHOOL IF I'M SICK YOU CONSTANTLY TALK ABOUT YOUR CRUSHES AND HOW GORGEOUS THEY ARE MEANWHILE I'M HERE TRYING TO TACKLE BEING YOUR THERAPIST LOVE CONSULTANT AND PANICKING ABOUT IF YOU HATE ME BECAUSE I PRACTISE WITCHCRAFT!
I GET THAT IT HURTS WHEN THE BOYS BULLY YOU BUT YOU NEED TO LEARN TO STAND UP FOR YOURSELF.
I CANT KEEP PUSHING MYSELF TO THE LIMIT FOR YOU JUST SO YOU MAKE IT THROUGH THE SCHOOL DAY WITH MINIMAL BULLYING, I GET THAT YOU NEED ME TO BE THERE SO THE MENTAL BURDEN IS BETTER BUT WHAT ABOUT MY MENTAL HEALTH??? WHAT ABOUT THE FACT THAT I AM CONSTANTLY SHAKING BECAUSE OF ANXIETY, YOU KNOW THIS BUT YOU NEVER CONSIDER IT!
HONESTLY YOUR THE ONLY FRIEND I HAVE AT SCHOOL AND SOMETIMES I WONDER IF I WOULD HAVE BEEN BETTER OFF NOT HANGING OUT WITH YOU!
