Addiction

Sixteen

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Janet

I just got off the phone with Taraji. She told me that Tasia had just shared with her that Toni had spoke to her about it, before even telling me. Crazy right?

Then it just dawned on me that everything she said last night she didn't mention her feelings towards me, but only how good I was too her. Was I too good for her is the question? She stated she'd want me to leave her because of this, but I know if the table was turned I'd be begging and pleading with her to stay.

"Hey J?"

"Mhm?" I turned around and she stood there. I honestly didn't see her the same in this moment.

"Can I say something right quick?"

"Didn't you say enough or that wasn't quick enough?"

"Janet..." she sighed but took my hand sitting down on the couch.

"I know it may seem like I've taken your love for granted.. and truthfully I have. I just, I keep fucking up. You deserve so much better than me, I don't deserve you at all Janet—."

"Uh uh you over heard my conversation with Taraji or Fantasia overheard because there's no way you're doing this bullshit right now."

"Janet no. Though that would explain how you knew."

"Man nah, Taraji ain't speak no shit. When you fucking with somebody you'll know if they dogging you out. Man I could feel you fucking him and Ian like how they felt. Toni don't bullshit with me, gone get out my face and save that lame ass shit. Ion wanna hear no, just words actions. You hearing me?"

"I'm hearing you."

"And don't think I want sex from you cause I don't. I need a lil more than that, especially seeing that you can have sex with anybody makes our sex worthless to me now. Gone get up out my face."

"You know you don't have to be a bitch about it."

"A bitch is the furthest thing I'm acting like." I got in front of her as there was the strongest tension between. Was I mad? Hell yea, though if she got feelings for me I need her to show me a littler something. Even though I just said ion wanna have sex with her, contradicting right? I just gotta give her sumn make myself feel better, take out a little frustration. She can start by letting me have my way until I'm tired.

"You sure about that?" She stepped up closer challenging me.

"I'm sure bout alot of things right now. Come here." I grabbed her by her throat tightly forcing her to look me in my eyes. "I hate you." I said with a smirk.

"I'm glad you want me to know that."

"I want you to feel it too." Gripping her neck a little tighter, I ripped her shirt wide open, picking her up and slamming her into the wall. I wrapped her legs around me as her hands were pinned to the wall. I kissed her full on with so much anger and hatred, biting her lip so hard I drew blood from it.

"You don't love me Toni. You only loved the idea of me, what I could do for you, and what I did to you. You don't love me Toni, you just wanna use me. You know I'm good, you know I'm crazy bout you. Why the fuck would you do that to me?" I moved her from the walls to the couch taking off her pants.

"Why you do me like this? What I do for you to cheat on me? I wanna know. How you feel bout me truly, if I walked out right now what you doing?"

"I didn't mean to Janet—."

"Save me bullshit Toni. A mistake don't happen twice. Fuck was going on? How he treating you over dey that you dropping drawls."

"It caught me off guard I didn't stop it and it happened."

"You enjoy?" She got quiet not saying nothing. I grabbed her again making her look into my eyes. "I said did you enjoy it!"

"For a minute." I nodded my head pushing her further in the couch.

"Tell me, how you feel bout me." I slid her panties to the side and my fingers in.

"Mhhh... fuck."

"Nah nah, Ian wanna hear no moaning. It ain't for your pleasure. I said tell me how you feel."

"You sure you want me to tell you or show you?"

"Tell me then show me."

"I really do love you and I find myself falling so deeply in love with you. My heart beats for you and I'm realizing that more now than ever. I'm sorry, I can't say how many times I'm sorry. Whatever it is I'll do it. I really wanted to keep it to myself, but as you say a person can feel it. I spoke with Fantasia I told her what happened and I realizing that hurting you had hurt me too. I knew I needed to end it with him because it's not him I want it's you. I needed to come clean to you, I couldn't sleep at night. I didn't know what to do, I just know I never thought bout intentionally hurting you. I love you, more than I love myself. I'll give my whole life for you. I know it's gone take a while for you to forgive me, time is all I have. I just know that I want you, wanna marry you, I need you, and I won't let you go. So whatever you wanna do to me, I suggest you do it. I'm at your mercy.." she said that last part so sexy, made me wet up.

And that lady and gentlemen mhm. Like that shit dey...

Fantasia

I was downstairs when Taraji called me for what I don't know.

"Tasia!" I went up to see what was wrong and lawd hamercy.

"Uh ummm you ok?"

"Yea I just need help getting into this."

"Maybe I can help you get out of it, where you going?"

"Gotta meeting with my team about my hair products."

"Let them reschedule or something, I— damn you look good." I pulled her close to me unzipping the same dress she fought so hard to get into.

"Mhm, they can definitely reschedule." She stepped out of it leaving her underwear on. The mirror caught our eyes as I watched her watch me.

"Tasia..."

"You make it so hard for me, really you do."

"How so?"

"I can't help but to look at you and wanna do sumn to you, just like I'm about to do now." I picked her up laying her down, rubbing her up and down her legs. I got between them kissing up her body.

"See that's the problem."

"What is?"

"You looking at me, your voice." Her hand rubbed the back of my head as I got in her neck kissing on her.

"Mhm, keep talking." My hands trailed down her body pulling her panties down and propping her legs on my shoulders. I licked down placing a solid kiss at her center.

Our eyes met in pure lust. With one lick she was gone and so was I. I kissed it slow yet passionately taking my time to wet up every crease and crevice of her. I wanted it so slick and wet down her that it would be the only thing you could hear. My chin was between her folds as I sucked and flickered my tongue over her, watching her squirm underneath me. I could feel all of her juices begin to cover my chin and drip onto the sheets.

"Oooh Fantasia..." her hands slid in my hair as she brought me in closer. "Fuck!" Our eyes met again as hers begin to roll and her breaths beginning to becoming shorter and more lengthily.

"You sound so good."

"Mhhh." Her back arched as a took her in a ride the she only could get on. "Ahhh I'm close baby."

"Don't worry ima get you there..."