My girl

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It's now the international break and no one at England liked me either after cheating on alessia.

•were currently training and I'm doing everything but no one's passing to me alessia won't even look at me I felt so guilty I loved alessia more than anything.
I run trying to get the ball calling for it but no one will pass•
"YEAH LEAH" i shout as Ella scoffs I sigh
"Fucked her last night?" Ella says
I roll my eyes as I keep walking "no I only want alessia" I say as alessia heard it and looked down
"You only want alessia but you fucked Leah behind her back?" Ella sneers
"It was a stupid mistake Ella" I say
"She was my girlfreind to you broke us up and you broke my best mates heart your sick" she shouts
*I look down* "if I could do you not think I'd take it back Ella it was a drunk stupid mistake"
"Typically you won't own up to your mistakes" Ella says her voice full of hatred and venom
"I admitted it but I never ment for nothing to happen I want alessia always has and always will." I say as if I had more fight left
*I walk out of training as I got dirty looks by whoever I walked past*
"Alex what's up" sarina says
"Nothing" I reply as sarina gives me a look to say she doesn't believe me
"Honestly it's nothing don't worry"I add on as I walk off tears fill my eyes as I walk into my room I sink to the floor I wanted alessia I needed alessia.

My door bangs as I jump I wipe my eyes opening the door to alessia stood there. My heart broke how did I hurt the love of my life an innocent woman who I only ever loved fully.
"Hey.."she says
"What are you doing here less.." I say softly
"I need to talk to you we need to talk.." she says as I nod
"Yeah come in" I open my room door as she walks in
"It's so messy in here god al" she says as I look down
"I'm so sorry-" I say but she cuts me off

"Don't even you don't get to say that I thought we was happy I thought you loved me I genuinely thought you loved me I thought  we was forever you said we would be forever you only wanted me to promised!" She snaps
"Alessia please.. I only want you I'll only ever want you Leah was a mistake a massive mistake yeah and I swear to you I'll never do it again" I say
"I can't Alex I just can't I'm not putting myself through that again I'm not doing that to myself" she says as I nod tears rolling down my cheeks
"I'm so sorry I hurt you I'm so so sorry alessia" I say sobbing.
"Your only sorry because you got caught al was you ever gonna telll me?" She says
"Yes I was actually I was gonna tell you" I say
"When?" She says
"I was gonna tell you after the party.." I say
"Yeah corse you was I bet that's more bullshit"'she saya
"I'm so sorry" I say looking down
"Whatever" she walks off but I follow after her blocking her way to the door
"Please.." I say
"Move" she reply's as I sigh
"One more chance I'm begging you!" I plead
"No Alex you made your bed now you have to lie in in...oh wait you already did with Leah" she says as my heart shatters
"Alessia.." I say tears rolling down my cheek
"No Alex." She snaps make firmly as she walks off