Finding my way in life

Running away

Today was July 31st, 2005, Alex and I turned 5 y.o; but for our parents, 'uncles', everyone really, it was just the birthday of the famous Alexander Fleamont Potter, the boy who lived.

All of the wizarding world think it was him who took the killing curse the night Voldemort came, but I have eidetic memory, but of course nobody would believe a 5 year old; all of them would think I'm jealous of my brother; or I'm a pretender or an attention seeker, so I decided to just stay in the shadows.

I could hear a lot of kids having fun in the garden, playing with little brooms, running and after some time all the people were singing happy birthday, I decided I had had enough, today was the day I was leaving this house. Where? I really don't know, but anywhere was better than here.

I put my things together, I don't have a lot of things, all of them were hand me downs from Alex, but at least now they were mine, I wrote a letter to leave it on my bed. It was messy but I was improving.

Potters.

I'm leaving because I think you would be better without me being a burden, and I would be better away from you. Don't look for me, it's clear that you don't want me in your lives.

Harry.

After the party was over, it was only Lily, James, Alex, Sirius, and Remus. All the guests were already gone. They were in the living room having a cup of tea.

"Did my baby have a good time?" asked Lily.

"Yes mommy!" exclaimed Alex.

"It was amazing, you beat all of them on Quidditch, pup!" exclaimed Sirius.

"Of course, he is my son," said James.

"And my godson" said Remus proudly.

They were laughing for some time, until Alex felt a pang in his chest, something bad had just happened and he just did not know what.

"Baby..." said Lily "Are you alright?"

Then Alex fell unconscious.

"ALEX!" all of them exclaimed and went terrified.

"Reneverte" said Sirius, pointing his wand at Alex.

Alex opened his eyes "Harry!"

The four adults were taken aback. "Honey..." started Lily.

"Harry!" yelled Alex "where is Harry!?"

The adults remembered the little boy with green eyes, Harry Potter, the brother of Alex, the twin brother, actually. And guilt faces could be seen on the four of them.

"Harry!!" yelled Alex.

"Moppy!" said James.

A house elf appeared "Yes, master"

"Ask Harry to come here" said James.

"Master Harry is not in the house, master" said Moppy.

Alex started to cry.

"What do you mean, he is not here?" whispered Lily.

"Master left" said Moppy.

"What?" asked Sirius.

Alex left, he went to his room and started to cry. He knew his parents loved him more than his brother, but he loved his brother. He always told him that, and he told him back that he loved him. He was the only one who really loved him or cared for him... Perhaps Harry was better without them... "I love you big bro, hope you are okay" whispered Alex before falling asleep.

Sirius sat down on one of the couches, he knew he was the boy's godfather, he actually never acted like a godfather to him. He acted more like a godfather to Alex; he knew everything about him and nothing about Harry. Why did he do that? He knew how it feels when you are nothing in comparison with your brother. He vowed then and there that when they found Harry he would spoil him rotten, he would beg for his forgiveness, and he would do anything for him.

Remus sat down on the dinner table, he had never been close to Harry, he was not his godson, but he never thought anybody would pay him attention. His wolf started to cry. He would do anything to find him and love him.

James just stood there, staring at the spot where Moppy was just seconds ago. He was trying to remember something about Harry, his first born, his heir, and he couldn't believe he couldn't remember anything about him, because he never spent time with him. It was always Alex, and never Harry. He would do anything to find him.

Lilly went to Harry's room, when she entered, she couldn't believe this was her son's room, it was awful, it had nothing. Lily was trying to understand why he left, and only remembering today's event, she cried again, they were the worst parents. She sat down on his bed and found a little letter.

"JAMES!!" yelled Lilly.

James, Sirius, and Remus appeared in Harry's rooms, all of them thought the same as Lily, it was awful that Harry was living in that room.

Lily started to cry again, and she handed the letter to James, all of them read it and they felt like the worst persons in the world. Little Harry thought they would be better without him, he thought of himself as a burden...

"We are going to find him Lily-flower" promised James "we are going to do it right!"

"I'm going to do the report now" said Sirius "all of my team would be willing to help!"

"And I'm going to the muggle police to fill the report, we are going to find him!" said Remus.

Remus and Sirius left to start the report, and James stayed to comfort his wife.