It's A Love Hate Relationship.

Sometimes things aren't as they seem

I woke up and it was time for me to rush and get ready for the show. I walked over to my wardrobe and just picked a pair of joggies and a top. I didn't feel good enough to get nicely ready. I walked to the studio to pick our songs and my music. I started walking to the studio thinking about Asher and the fact that he might not turn up. I started to speed walk so I was not late. "Good, you are here" Coleen said, I smiled and walked to Asher's room, it was empty and he was no were to be seen. I then walked to the auditorium and sat down, still no Asher. "And this week theme is.... how you feel" Coleen smiled. I looked up the back and saw Asher, "You came" I smiled, "Not for you, I still need the money" He said walking away. I cant blame him, if I saw him do that for a girl I would have cancelled the show. I walked into Asher's changing room, "What song are you doing?" I asked barely looking at him, "Yeah,  Maroon 5 misery" "Yeah I picked my audition song Dumb because that is how I feel right now" I said looking into his eyes, "Good, and together black eyed peas were is the love" He never even asked me he told me. I walked away to pick an outfit. I walked into my changing room to see Frankie sitting there with a woman. "What" I said, "Nothing I just wanted to see you and this is my mum I have been telling her all about you" He said smiling, "Why?" Just as I said that  Asher walked in, "Why the fuck are you here, you disgusting little-" He was cut off with Frankie saying "Don't talk to my mum like that" "Your mum, oh so this is my half brother" He said about to punch that woman, I grabbed Asher out and took him outside, "What is wrong?" I asked, "Nothing" He said about to walk away, "Asher, please" I said grabbing his hand, "That is the slut my dad ran away with" He said walking away, "And its all in the past" I said chasing him, he turned around I could tell he was angry, "No, it is not, she is also my aunt" He screamed, "Your da-dad fucked his sister?" I said feeling a little creeped out, "No that would be my mum's sister" He said finally stopping, "Oh" Was all I could say, "Yeah, she is the main reason I am so fucked up today" He said and started walking again, "Wait what?" I asked chasing him, "She abused me" He finally screamed, he fell to the ground and I saw tears, "What?" I said sitting down and hugging him, "She Abused Me" He said slower, "No I heard that" I said, "My dad abused me physically and she sexually abused me, happy?" He shouted, "How the fuck can you say that of course I am not" I shouted He had tears in his eyes, "Now you know why I am so fucked, go leave everyone else does" He said trying to stand up. "I am never going to leave you" I said kissing him. We walked to his place just to calm him down, "Does your mum know?" I asked while we walked in, "Nope" He said, hugging me, "Thanks" He the said. I walked with him upstairs, I stripped off and so did he we climbed into bed and fell asleep.

"Leah wake up" He said tickling me, "Asher" I said waving my arms around, then I accidentally hut him on the nose. "That's it" He said picking me up and locking me out the room, "No, I hear noises coming from down stairs, and I only have a bra and underwear on" He just laughed. I kept banging the door and he finally letting me in.  I got ready to go to the show, we walked downstairs, "Oh hi honey guess who is back in town" Asher's mum said, We both looked round and saw his mum, his aunt and Frankie. Frankie had a smirk on hi face, "Oh" was all Asher said, "We have to go to the show, bye" He said grabbing my hand, "OK but tonight could it just be you home tonight, no offense but we want  a family dinner, me, you, and your aunt and cousin" His mum said, "Mum!?" He said looking at me, "NO, Just you tonight, they will be staying here for a few nights" She said smiling.

We walked to the studio in silence, "Eh so why does your mum like her if she left with your dad?" I finally spoke, "She does not know it's her she thinks it is one of My aunt Carol's friends" He said keeping his head low.

Finally we made it there on time to, "Good to see your time keeping skills are getting there" Coleen said with a smile, I got ready in my hot pants and lacy top, my hair was in a high pony tail and make up was dramatic. I heard my name on stage and walked out,

"You said you love me way too soon Gave me the sun when all I wanted was the moon Never out your sight, holding my hand Just a little too tight Sippin on your beer can, waiting for an answer Wish that we could slow down You want to go faster You said you love me way too soon You know me 24 days, so how can that be true You don’t know my mind But then again nor do I But you make me smile, a lot

Oh, woops I think I miss you, too late Cause I got rid of you Think I may have got this wrong Sorry but I didn’t know you were the one Oh no, I got so scared Convinced myself that I didn’t really care Now I know that you’re the one I’m sorry that I’ve been so dumb Dumb, dumb, dicky, dumb, dumb Dumb, dumb, dicky, dumb, dumb..." I was so nervous this time, maybe because I have already sang that song, or maybe because I can't stop thinking about Asher, this whole time I only spoke about my parents, I never really asked about his. I gave Asher a big hug and wished him good luck.

"So scared of breaking it that you won't let it bend And I wrote two hundred letters I will never send Sometimes these cuts are so much deeper then they seem You'd rather cover up, I'd rather let them be So let me be, and I'll set you free I am in misery There ain't nobody who can comfort me, oh yeah Why won't you answer me? he silence is slowly killing me, oh yeah.." He just stopped, and put his head down and walked off stage, "Asher what is wrong?" I hugged him, "Ok that was strange, now can we have Asher and Leah" I heard Coleen say, "Listen, I can't go on without you" Asher said, "I had to walk off I needed you" He hugged me, 

"What's wrong with the world mama People living like they ain't got no mama I think the whole world's addicted to the drama Only attracted to things that will bring you trauma Over seas, yeah, we tryin' to stop terrorism But we still got terrorists here living in the USA The big CIA, the Bloods, and the Crips and the KKK  But if you only have love for your own race Then you only leave space to discriminate And to discriminate only generates hate And when you hate then you're bound to get irate Madness is what you demonstrate And that's exactly how anger works and operates Man, you got to have love just to set it straight Take control of your mind and meditate Let your soul gravitate to the love y'all

People killing, people dying Children hurtin', hear them crying Can you practice what you preach Or would you turn the other cheek Father father father father Send some guidance from above Cause people got me, got me questioning Where is the love..." We finished and kissed on stage,

"Come back to mine please.." I said to Asher...