This Is Love - the sequel

chapter 22 - as I'll ever be

*Danny*

We are all going out tonight and Louise is about to land so im going to meet her at the airport and then going out to meet everyone.

Im in the back of the cab thinking of jess. I know this must be hard for her; it was hard for me when I had to see her and cam together. It means so much that she is being supportive and going to meet Louise tonight- she is willing to try. She means the world to me and no matter whatever happens whenever she will always be my best friend and mean everything to me. I would be able to cope losing her. She's amazing. Inspiring. I don't know anyone that is as strong as her. What she has been through. Whats she goes through every day. She keeps going no matter how shit she feels she will never give up. She puts everyone else first before even thinking about herself.

My phone buzzes and speak of the devil it's a notification of a tweet from jess. I open it

@JessieJ holiday feels... I love singing and using music to express myself... http:youtube.hut.bsgfbhuai.ndjfrgvo-jessie-j-holiday986feels.90

I click the link and it opened as her sat in the hotel room.

Jess: hi guys, I haven't done a YouTube video in a while so I thought I would... I sing to express myself and I am only human just like all of you, I have good days and I have bad days. So I thought I'd sing a few snippets of songs...

She took a deep breath and to anyone else it would look as if she was fine but I could tell she was broken...

Jess: I stare at my reflection in the mirror why I am I doing this to myself losing my mind on a tiny error I nearly left the real me on the shelf no no no no no.... don't lose who you are in the blur of the stars seeing is deceiving dreaming is believing its ok not to be ok sometimes it's hard to follow your heart tears don't mean you're losing everybody's bruising just be true to who you are....

She sang so effortlessly. It's captivating.

Jess: instead of me singing to friends im talking over enemies the world is so loud, loud, loud, it's so loud, loud it's like hearing pins drop in the crowd they won't stop until they goddamn tear you down man the world is so loud, loud, loud it's so loud, loud, loud I try and drown them all out with my sound but they won't stop, stop until they tear me down, until they tear me down...

I know the hate she gets really gets her down. It's something she has to deal with every day and its hard seeing messages telling her to die and that she is shit especially when she is feeling crap.

Jess: he is the flame he draws me in that burns within, it's a pain, it's so sweet oh, the fix the craze by now he needs, only I can't breathe, and I just can't pull away, oh, oh from the fire fire fire I never wanna put it out burning burning burning fire fire fire I never wanna put it out burning burning burning

Ouch. Indirect there. I had to expect it really I know she is falling for me, I should have told her straight sooner. But that would have been too simple for us wouldn't it.

Jess: playing pretend I shouldn't hide it, it isn't right being a liar, im crossing the line, dancing with fire, when im not fine should I deny it? cause im going crazy when im not ok, I keep praying that the cracks don't show my pain, cause even when im falling I see my life is like a dream but im fighting through a nightmare cause im not really being me. See you don't really know me.

I hate seeing how cut up she is at the moment and knowing im behind it. I was her last straw that has pushed her over the edge. She sang a few more bits but I couldn't listen to anymore.

We soon arrived at the airport and I jumped out and waited for Louise to arrive. I soon caught sight of my gorgeous women and didn't waste any time in wrapping my arms round her and giving her a well needed kiss.

Danny: I've missed you

Louise: missed you too

I kiss her again

Danny: ready?

She nodded and we go in a cab.

Danny: nervous?

She nodded and I reassuringly squeezed my hand.

Louise: did you tell Jessie?

Louise knows everything about me and jess, basically my label says all my girlfriends and partners have to sign a NDA which is a Non Discloser Agreement, which means they can't tell anyone about anything I tell her or go to the press or discuss us with anyone. I didn't do it with jess because I know her boyfriends have to di and we didn't see the need to sign each others or did we feel the need to run to the press.

Danny: yeah

Louise: how'd she take it?

Danny: bad, but I expected that... but she is trying and wants to meet you

Louise: im most nervous to meet her to be honest

Danny: why?

Louise: she's your ex-girlfriend, that's loads of pressure and also she influences you, I don't know I just am

Danny: don't be, they will all love you...

To be honest, im nervous as hell too. I want them to love her, to get on because if not then I don't want to have to pick between. I'll always pick the lads and my friends over any women because they are my family and life.

We soon pull up outside the hotel and I help her carry her bags in and to my room. We then walk down the road to the club we went to the other night. We stood outside.

Danny: ready?

Louise: as I'll ever be

I held her hand and led her into the club. Here goes nothing.

******sorry for the late update I've been really busy but as soon as the holidays come, only 3 more school days *celebrates* ill have more time! How's Louise gonna go down with everyone else?? Please comment, vote and fan:Dxx*****

FV