This Is Love - the sequel

chapter 24 - let go of the past

****A/N this update is extra extra long (about 2 updates long) to say sorry for not updating xx******

*holly*

Im so torn I this whole situation with Danny and jess. Im glad jess isn't with cam anymore because he wasn't right for her and she knew that but im also glad Danny has found someone. But it's at the cost of jess. Everything has been horrible for her recently; she has been on non-stop touring all around the world with no breaks. Because of her new album, break-up, leaving the voice and relationship with cam means she's been in the public eye more than ever and it's really taking its toile.

She isn't over reacting to this situation, all her angry and hurt hasn't been about Danny; he's just been a last straw and a reason. He's been a target for her angry. It's just her letting off all her hurt and unsettledness.

I do however think it was a dick moving bring Louise out here already, like isn't it a tad soon? Especially since he just found out that jess was starting to like him.

But to be honest jess has been calm so far, psycho jess barely ever comes out; and in mean on rare, rare occasions and this could have been one. Although part of me wants her to let all her anger toward him come out. When it comes to him she is so good at hiding her anger. She has so much anger building up since she was 15 and yeah they've argued and whatever but she has never let it show properly. But maybe she should because then he'd have an idea of how much it's hurting her.

We all leave the cab; everyone is ahead apart from me, jess and mark. We aren't really drunk but there's plenty of drink at the hotel so we decided to have an after party there.

Jess was upset and rightfully so to be honest.

Holly: you've done so well and I know your upset I know I know

*Jessie*

I've put a brave face on for everyone to see and now it's just all come crashing down on me.

Jess: I really like her

Holly: I know, I know she's a nice person

Jess: and that's why I hate him even more... because she's actually really nice

I've never felt so broken and in bits about us. And it's stupid because ive only juts started to like him again but when I fall for Danny I always fall really hard.

Jess: she's really nice, and pretty and lovely and when I spoke to her she was so nice to me that it makes it even worse...

I know it's hard for them to see me breakdown but im so weak I can't keep this smile up.

Jess: this has gone on for so many years; it's not just a boyfriend girlfriend thing. It's him. I can't not be with him, I can't ignore him, I can't not look at anything to do with him because of the life we have.

It's so hard to see her because not only is she Danny's new girlfriend she also makes him very happy.

Holly: jess sometimes two people aren't made to work and I loved you and danny together but I always wanted more for you two... and one day you will fucking find it, something better

Mark: jess, babe, you've cried and hurt over him too much over the years. And he has for you. This time maybe you'll be able to move on from each other.

Jess: what has she given him- giving him that I never did? Oh but I forgot, we're just best friends.

We get back to the hotel and I sort myself out before going in and to my room. I get changed into just my oversized hoodie.