guys I'm in love

24sept2024

24sept2024 10:44pm I've been trying to sleep for an hour and a half now but that boy is ringing in my head like tinnitus. Earlier today i swear he made me fall in love with him again. He makes me forget about anything and everything for a few minutes. I'm in love with this boy.

The fantasy that's been ringing in my head is specific. It's based in a hotel and basically we dance, eat, drink and fuck and the next day morning, i wake him up with my mouth around his cock.

This feels so wrong to write. Like I'm sexually harassing him but i need to get this out. It's absolutely inane because I'm thinking about all the things I'm not normally oriented towards.

Like blowjobs, finger fucking, piv. It's all so vanilla. I want penetration with him. So badly. I imagine it to feel close and full and complete. I need him inside me. Right fucking now.

And i want to sub for him wtf????? Like I want vanilla and also gentle dom. Like tie my hands behind my back and make me cum until I physically cannot anymore and then some more. I feel so safe with him.

Anyway I make him cum in my mouth and lifts me onto his lap for kisses. I beg (practically) for him to tie me up and make me cum until I physically cannot anymore.

He ties my hands behind my back and he chooses to finger fuck me first tho (so hot for what??!!!) and i cum hard with his free hand holding me by my back, he presses his lips to my collarbone ‘i got you’ and i rest my head on his shoulder while panting post orgasm. He tries to remove his fingers from inside me.

‘nonononono keep them inside please. I always feel so empty when you pull it out’ i whine, my senses hazy. I'm slumped over him, still straddling somehow. His hands trace patterns on my lower back.

His fingertips, right beside my g-spot gently tickle and my entire body shakes as I let out a whimper. ‘you sure you don't want them out? You're too sensitive’ even his voice could make me orgasm again i swear it.

‘i love it. Very slowly move them please. Very very slowly’ my voice is almost a whisper as I revel in the pleasure his fingers provide me with.

My body reaches its peak quite quickly as it is it's second time. ‘im close’ i squeak out before biting down on his shoulder and spasming around his fingers in the most poetic way possible.

My body shakes with the aftermath 10 minutes later when his fingers are long gone and sweat has pooled up where our bodies meet. I can feel his soft cock against my stomach and his chest rising rhythmically.

He holds my wrists, caressing the wounds of the bondage. He kisses them as he states. ‘didnt it hurt’

‘i like pain’ i lean my head up to place a ginger kiss on his pouty lips. ‘and I feel safe enough with you’

‘ok’ he kisses me with his hands on my hips, making me shake again.

‘lets put you to sleep baby’ he mumbles and places me down on the pillow. I don't let go of his arm until he snakes it around my waist.

I whisper another confession of love before drifting off.

I AM GOING CRAZY