Be mine

chapter 11

Jisung's pov ( next day)
" it is getting late, should we go back to our room?" I glanced at felix from the corner of my eyes before I chuckled...Jackson left a while ago leaving me with lee, he agreed to work with us. I mean it is not a surprise after finding out that he knew felix...no he dated lee minho, yet my dear husband...yeah husband Jackson didn't stop calling me felix's husband tonight...I think I will start using it...wait...I think I am getting drunk. Going back, felix told me that this deal was important to him....and I need to behave...but after finding out about his relationship with Jackson I got pissed.

"Our room?" I said rolling my eyes.
"You are drunk jis..."
"Nope" I said putting my finger in the air " I am thinking...which means I am not drunk" I added.
"I am really afraid you are turning into an alcoholic...you didn't drink this much before..."
"As if you know me" I said taking another sip from my drink.
"I know enough...this is not you" felix replied.
"Oh, sorry...it is not like I lost the love of my life and got married against my will" I said looking at the younger who glanced away from " so you are close to Jackson " I added.
"I know what you are thinking about...I told you that..."

"You were going to get the deal anyways why did you..."
"I don't mix personal relationships with work jisung" felix cut me off...I started at him with a raised eyebrow before I bursted into laughs...the man is talking as if he didn't marry me for a business deal.
"Give me another glass" I said to the bartender who immediately looked at felix " he is not my damn father...I said give me another drink" I added hitting the counter.
"Alright...this night is over for you...you are coming with me...we need to sleep anyways, we have an early flight tomorrow " felix said grabbing my arm.
"Go to hell" I said standing up.
"Let me help you..."
"I can walk fine" I cut the younger making my way toward the elevator...I am going to feel like shit tomorrow I know it...yet I never learn...

My vision is starting to get blurry...I lost count of how much I drank but I tried my best to remember my way toward the room...and judging by the fact that felix didn't stop me I think I am not wrong...I can feel him right behind me.
As soon as I reached the closed door I remembered that I don't have a key.
"Open the damn door lee" I said knocking.
"I will if you move " I glanced behind me before I snickered.
"Right you were behind me" I said leaning on the wall...how did I reach this state? I was happy...I was loved...I was in love...and now I am a damn mess...I am alone...I took a deep breath and closed my eyes...Next month is hyunjin's death anniversary...and when i say next month it is just in few days...10 days to be exact..it will make exactly a year since his accident...his death.

"Jisung", I opened my eyes to see felix staring at me with worried eyes " why are you crying?" I added titling his head to the side.
A moment of silence filled the hall as I kept staring at him. " just tell me...why...why did you sign the contract...just for money...hell we were going bankrupt...the merge benefit us more than you..."
"Jisung" felix said with a hashed voice.
"We are competitors...you would won...we literally have nothing to offer that you don't already have and let's be honest I am nowhere close to being a good businessman" I said chuckling, I mean sure we are rich and the merge saved our assets but still they could have bought it for a cheap price they could have acquired everything we have.
"Come on let's go inside you are tired" the younger said grabbing my arm.
" the biggest question is how could you do this to hyunjin? As much as I hated you being close he was your damn best friend " I yelled pushing him back but he didn't back away. " You ask me why I am crying because his death anniversary in ten freaking days lee...do you even remember that?" I added.

"Do you think you are the only one is hurting" felix yelled looking at me with teary eyes " i lost my best friend jisung...maybe it is different from the type of love you hold for him but I loved hyunjin...I have been through hell after I lost him...not just me...seungmin too...and the others...but you don't know what we have been through because you were crying yourself alone in your damn room." He added before his eyes turned wide clearly shocked by what he said.
"Oh, Mr lee...I apologise that I was mouring my boyfriend's death and didn't think on checking on your feelings...he was the love of my life...you said it yourself you can't compare our pain...our loss...hyunjin was the only person that understood me...who loved me for who I am...not even my parents cared about what I want...but he did...so don't think for a second that your pain is any much to mine" I said pushing through him to enter the damn suite...