Even after two years... | GYUBRIK SHIMKONGZ Au

9. Even after two years

Gyuvin stands infront of the club not knowing what exactly he wants to tell Sam. With every step he takes towards the club he feels more anxious.

Once he got in he tried to look for Sam and his friends. The club was full so it took Gyuvin some time to find a familiar face. The first person he saw was literally Zihoon. He was obviously drunk. „Hey Gubin! You are here! I never thought that you would go clubbing!" He yells. His breathe smells like alcohol and cigarettes. „Where's Sam?" Zihoon shrugs with his shoulders. „I don't know. Or maybe I do? I am not going to tell you." He laughs weirdly. „I am about to throw my fist into your annoying looking ass face right now so just tell me where Sam is." Gyuvin never talked to someone like this before but he was so full of rage that he just had to let this out now. „Okay chill my brother! He's on the toilet!" Gyuvin walked straight towards the toilets trying not to get cocktails land on him while bumping into so many drunk people. Gyuvin stands infront of the men toilet and opens the door. Sam was there. But he was not alone. Gyuvin isn't sure if he's surprised or not but seeing Sam kissing some other guy on the club toilet made Gyuvin feel so disgusting. He puts on a fake laugh so loud that Sam heard it. He looked up and his eyes widened. „Gyuvin?? What are you doing here?" Gyuvin walks towards Sam still feeling anger and frustration in him. He doesn't think about it twice and slaps Sam's Face. „I deserve something better than you." He shouts and leaves hiding that tears were already building up in his eyes again.

Gyuvin sat down at the bar and ordered some drinks for himself. He's never done that before but he just couldn't handle the pain anymore. Everything hurt so bad he just wanted to paralyze the pain. Until he got very drunk. Walking outside the club not knowing where he should go he decides to call Hanbin.

„Hello? Gyuvin? Is everything alright?"

„Hanbin Hyung! I was so stupid!"

„Gyuvin are you drunk? Where you are? I'm coming to pick you up!"

„No need to! I will just walk home. When I figure out where my home is. Because I don't know anymore!"

„Gyuvin. Where are you? I'm worried about you. Why did you get drunk?"

„Sam cheated on me isn't that funny? I just saw him kissing a boy."

„Did you go into the club where he and his friends always party? Wait for me i'm going to pick you up there! Stay there! I am coming!"

„No I am not here anymore. I think my legs are taking me to home right now."

„Gyuvin, listen. Just stay still okay? Don't go anywhere. I will pick you up!"

„No! sorry I didn't mean to scream at you. I mean.. no. I know where I am going. I can see the house already."

„Are you going to Ricky?"

„Yes."

„Gyuvin please take care of yourself and stay on the phone until you're at Ricky's place. I want to know that you're safe, okay?"

„Yes. Sorry I didn't call you Hyung all the time.."
„Hyung"

„Don't worry Gyuvinnie! Just walk slowly to Ricky's place! I know that he's home."

„Will he apologize to me? Hanbin Hyung I want him to apologize to me."

„I am pretty sure he knows what to do now, Gyuvin."
„How far do you still have to walk?"

„I am here now. I ring the bell."

„Okay Gyuvin. If he opens the door give him your phone please. I wanna talk to him."

„Okay, Hyung."

Gyuvin rings the door bell around 10 times. Ricky was sleeping already so it took him a while to go to his door. Not knowing who the hell was spam ringing his door bell in the middle of the night he shakes his head and opens the door. Gyuvin stands infront of him clearly drunk. „Here." He says holding his phone right into Ricky's face. „Hello?"

„Ricky?"

„Hanbin Hyung??? What's going on?"

„Gyuvin got drunk and somehow managed to call me and walk to your apartment. Please take care of him. Maybe this is your chance to make up."

„Okay, Hanbin Hyung. Thank you." They hang up.

Gyuvin just stares at Ricky. He suddenly doesn't know what to say. His head was full before he stood infront of Ricky. He wanted to say so many things. Now they're all gone.

„Gyuvin.. what happened?" Gyuvin got teary eyes again. „What happened? You. happened."

Ricky takes Gyuvin's arm and pulls him inside. „Why are you here? And why are you drunk?" Gyuvin looks like he's about to cry a river. „No. Why are you here? Why did you come back into my life? I was doing just fine without you. So why are YOU here? And why am I getting cheated on now? What did I do to deserve this? What is wrong with me Ricky? Tell me. Why is all of this happening to me?" He starts to cry which concerns Ricky even more. Ricky doesn't know how to respond to Gyuvin's questions. „Gyuvin I... I wish I could take all the pain that you must feel right now away from you. He takes a break. „Let me get you some water and a blanket. You can stay here over night." Ricky turns around but Gyuvin pulls him back. „You didn't answer my questions, Ricky. Stop being so scared and be honest with me." Ricky lets out a deep breath. „Gyuvin you are drunk. We should talk about this when you're sober." Gyuvin lowers his head and stares on the ground. He takes all of his courage to tell Ricky what he's thinking now. „Even after two years I still love you, Ricky. But I also hate you so much." Ricky can not believe what he just heard. Gyuvin still loves him. But he hates me too... For a few seconds Ricky just stares at Gyuvin trying to process what he just said. They both stay silent. Then Ricky kneels down and holds Gyuvin's hands. „I am sorry Gyuvin. I was being selfish. All the time I thought it was the best to break up even if it hurts me. I didn't think this through back then because I didn't want to be reason why you give up on your dream to become an idol. I wanted you to be happy without me but I should've talked to you first before I ended things. I know a simple sorry is not enough but just know that I truly am sorry and that I have never stopped loving you. Ever since I left I haven't stopped thinking about you and my heart hurts seeing you like this right now. This is all my fault. I'm sorry that it took me so long to say all of this." Ricky tears up which Gyuvin notices. They look into each others eyes and they both feel how their heart starts beating faster. „Can I kiss you?" Gyuvin asks with a shaking voice. „I would love to but I don't wanna take advantage of a drunk person Gyub.. Let's go to bed now. I promise I will hold you tight." Gyuvin nods and let Ricky help him get up. Ricky gets him one of his cute strawberry pyjamas and helps him to change. After that they lay down in his bed and Ricky holds Gyuvin in his arms just like he promised. „Please never leave me again." Gyuvin says before closing his eyes. „This time I will stay forever." Ricky whispers. Then they both fall asleep.