„Ricky please. Why are you like this? I told you I would quit my job and go with you!" Gyuvin screams while crying but Ricky stays silent. „Why aren't you saying anything? Is it that easy for you to leave me?" Ricky still says nothing. „Fine. I am sorry for bothering you. I think I misunderstood you. I thought we were something special to you too." And with that Gyuvin runs out of Ricky's apartment and takes the next bus to his home. Tears keep falling down his face, his cheeks burn and his throat hurts. Did he even love me? Why does he give up on us? Was all the time we spent together nothing for him? Didn't I mean something to him? All these questions keep repeating in his head. He doesn't even dare to open the letter Ricky wrote to him. „The fuck even is this? An official breaking up paper? Do I have to sign under this?" Gyuvin is full of sadness, confusion, frustration and anger. He rips the letter apart and throws it onto his bed. He falls down to his knees and cries even harder. His heart hurts so bad.
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Ricky starts crying. Gyuvin just run away. Now he's probably gone forever. The second Gyuvin started crying, Ricky's heart shattered into thousand peaces. He wanted to take him in his arms and tell him that it was just a dream and that they'll stay together forever but that was not possible. Ricky will move to the US and he doesn't want them to have a long distance relationship. Ricky knew that this is something that would not make their relationship stay as strong and perfect as it used to be. So better end things now than waiting for it to become complicated and even more hurtful. And even tho Gyuvin said he wants to quit his job as a trainee to follow Ricky. Ricky didn't want him to give up on his biggest dream just to follow someone he's been with only for three years while his dream of becoming an idol has been there since he was born. He didn't want to be the reason why Gyuvin might end up regretting everything. Telling Ricky that it was his fault that Gyuvin had to give up on his dream. Ricky was scared of that. He didn't want this to happen. He hated the thought of Gyuvin losing his dream. All he wants is Gyuvin to be happy even if that means to break his heart. He will get over it. He will find someone better who treats him well and who deserves him more than I do.
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After literal hours of crying Gyuvin's door's ringing. Who could this be? Ricky? No.. probably not. He had almost no strength left to get up but he managed to walk towards the door and opened it. „GYUVIN!? ARE YOU OKAY?" A shocked Hanbin looked into Gyuvin's face which was all puffed up and red because of the crying. „Hanbin Hyung.. why did he do this to me?" Gyuvin starts sobbing again. „Why?" Now he's full on crying again. Hanbin takes his younger friend into his arms and tries to comfort him. — After a while of just hugging and letting Gyuvin cry on his shoulders Hanbin takes a step back to pull out of the hug. He looks into Gyuvin's eyes and wipes his tears away. „Aigoo~ Now look at you Gyuvinnie. Let's go wash you up okay? You have snot everywhere." Gyuvin nods slowly and follows Hanbin into his bathroom. He sits down on the floor and leans over the bathtub. Hanbin starts washing Gyuvin's hair. He even dries it for him. „Thank you Hanbin Hyung." Gyuvin pouts while looking down in frustration. „No need to thank me Gyubin. I am always there for you. You know that."
After washing up Hanbin and Gyuvin sit down in the kitchen of Gyuvin's small apartment. They drink some tea and Gyuvin tells Hanbin what happened. He still cries but it's not as much as he used to a few hours ago. „And I even ended my trainee job..." Hanbin looks at Gyuvin surprised. „You did what? But you dreamed of becoming an Idol since you were little!" Gyuvin nodded. „But Ricky became my new dream.." Hanbin holds Gyuvin's hands. „Why didn't you tell him that?" Gyuvin looked down again. „I wanted to but then he said he doesn't want me to follow him. I should try forgetting him now and live my dream.. so I shut down." Gyuvin sobs. „I think he just don't want to be the reason why you give up on your idol dream.. I mean since he doesn't know your true feelings about him." Gyuvin shrugs his shoulders. „Please don't tell him this. Promise me, Hanbin Hyung." Hanbin hesitates but then agrees. „I promise. But tell me whenever you need me, okay?" Gyuvin nodded again.
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It rings on Ricky's door as well. Did he come back? Ricky opens his door and sees a worried Zhanghao standing infront of it. „Hao Hyung? What are you doing here?" Zhanghao lets himself in and sits down on a chair. „So you broke up with Gyuvin?" Ricky was confused for a second but then understood. „Hanbin Hyung told you, right? After I told him to go look after Gyuvin..?" Zhanghao nods. „Yes and i'm here to look after you now." Ricky sits down too. „I'm fine Hyung. Don't worry about me." Zhanghao rolls his eyes. „You're such a bad liar. Ricky. You just broke up with Gyuvin. That guy you told me three years ago you have the biggest crush on. That guy you told me a few months ago is the love of your life." A tear starts rolling down Ricky's cheek again. „I just didn't know what else to do.. I think this was the right decision. Even if it hurts." Zhanghao sighs and stands up to give Ricky a hug. „If this is really your decision, then okay. Nobody will try changing your mind. But please go talk to Gyuvin again before you leave. I don't want my aegis to part their ways like that." Ricky nodded.
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Day of Ricky leaving
Ricky stands infront of Gyuvin's apartment door. Will he open it? I mean he doesn't know that it's me.. or does he?? He knows that i'm leaving today.. Ricky was about to knock on Gyuvin's door but it suddenly opens. „Gyuvin.." They look into each others eyes. Gyuvin obviously didn't sleep the last night. His eyes were puffy and his hair was messy. „D-did you cry?" Gyuvin stays silent and walks past Ricky to bring his trash out. „Gyuvin? Can we talk? I am leaving today.. I don't want to leave you like this..." But Gyuvin stays silent again. „Okay I see what you're doing here. I'm sorry that I ignored you yesterday.. but please talk to me now.. I wanna give you a proper goodbye.." Gyuvin goes back into is apartment and stops in the door. „Goodbye. Shen Quanrui." He said bluntly without any emotions in his face and closed the door right into Ricky's face who just stares at the wooden door now.. „Goodbye Kim Gyuvin.." Ricky says frustrated and leaves the house.
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Even after two years... | GYUBRIK SHIMKONGZ Au
Fiksi Penggemar,,Even after two years... I still love you, Ricky. But I also hate you.'' Gyuvin and Ricky had a perfect relationship going on. But one day Ricky accepts a job abroad and goes to the US. He decides to break up with Gyuvin but after two years he stil...
