33. Letters and Silence

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I have been writing letters for the past 3 years.

All about everything you are;


And now I write letters about everything you were...


And I often sit and wonder,

Do the letters end up at your doorsteps;

Or where the line was once blurred enough;

That where you start and I end remained a mystery?


Or where you and I kept our war-struck lovelaced secrets?

Ones that the wind kept to itself and flew off?

Or the ones where we kept it to ourselves 

cause even the wind cannot carry it to someplace, 

where no one can find it cause of how heavy it is 

from the years it had endured?


And I started to wonder what went wrong?

Perhaps we liked silence too much;

That only silence consumes our conversations.

We have none.

so....

I'm back?

idk i just feel like i haven't been in the greatest headspace to write, until now i guess?

i just still feel like i haven't moved on, 

and god doesn't it hurt like some heavy stone on my heart daily?


but god, am i not being too hopeful that he'd return?


idk....

i dont know....


enjoyyyy


Singing Matilda by Harry Styles,

🫶jewel 🫶


(p.s: i moved houses, doing great here) 

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