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Did you know we use to laugh at funerals?

The funeral was held the next Sunday after the accident . I wasn't really religious because Cristina didn't actually believe in anything. Everyone from the Grey-Sloan memorial hospital came to say a last goodbye. Everyone said some words. The first one to go was Alex
"When I started on this hospital we were five interns. George, Izzie, Cristina, Meredith and myself. On the first day the chief told us that only two of us would make it. I though it will be me and Cristina. I though he said that because it takes guts to be a surgeon and all that crap. I didn't knew it would be that death will be coming for us. She was strong, smart, passionate about her work. She deserved a Harper Avery more than anybody. She was my family with Meredith. They were the persons that I could count every time. I had a girlfriend that tried to kill herself. A wife that got cancer and when she got better left me with her clinical bills. A girl that I like that take my job in Africa. And Cristina stayed through it all. So yeah I own her everything. And believe I didn't like her at the beginning. I still can remember our first words to each other. It was our second day. I was reassigned with Bailey. I was being her shadow for the day. I was like: "nice to meet you, I am Alex Karev" and she told me "the pig who called Meredith a nurse, I hate you on principle" and I say "and you're the pussy over-bearing kick-ass, I hate you too. The last thing I remember was her saying "so it should me fun then". And it was. She was very special. And I will miss her" Alex said firmly and get back to his seat. The next one to say her words was Meredith

"Cristina Yang was, is, and will be forever my person. Since the first day we had been. Throughout this years we had experience a lot of crap. I died and then came back. She was left at the altar. We were in the shooting and in a plane crash. I could keep going but you get the idea. Also you could say that we all should feel useless. She was the one that ordered the last dose of medicine when they were about to call my time of dead. She was the one that fixed Derek chest. She was the one moving around at the woods carrying water and stuff. She was the one cleaning Arizona's leg with leaves and stuff. She was the one that did something against her attending orders so she could save Callie. She was the one that didn't pop Webber's aorta. She was one that refuse to do a surgery at the time that Hahn treated her like crap just to calm Bailey when Tuck went into surgery. I could keep going. She was the only person that really knew me. And now she's gone. And she wasn't finished" Meredith said but at that moment she started laughing and everybody looked her funny "I am sorry. But I just can believe it! my person is dead! The impossible Cristina Yang is dead! BECAUSE SHE WENT TO THE MALL! Don't worry she would be cool with this. We laugh at George funeral and at the all injustice of the world" at that moment her laugh end and finally said "I love you Cristina. You are more than my best friend, sister, person. Our bond was rare and special. You are extraordinary" Meredith said letting out one tear. The next one to go was Owen

"I don't really know were to start. She was... Amazing. No, she was more than that. She was my best friend, my lover, my soulmate, my everything. And I was going to let her go. I really was. Because she would be happy. And now, she just doesn't. She was this special person that people often call her a unemotional robot. She had all this special details. Like when we sleep, she slept so peacefully that sometimes I checked her pulse. She didn't like cooking, so we ate cereal out of the box. She hated musicals. Like hate them. She was really, really disorganized, but I loved picking after her. She had a shirt that she wasn't allow to wear when we were having an argument because I forgot what my point was. She preferred to drink coffee from the cart outside the hospital rather than the cafeteria coffee. She didn't mind to stay in bed all day. She had suffer and understand suffering. She forgave. I am still working on that. She was this amazing person. And before I met her, I live fine without her. But now that I met her, I don't know how to exist in a world that she doesn't. And to final this eulogy, I won't say "take care now" because that was the phrase that was suppose to fill the spaces of the three words I couldn't say. Now I can say them: I love you"