If There's A Question of My Love ( August Alsina Love Story )

Chapter 4

I truly apologize for not updating in a month! I feel so guilty I swear , but there's so many things going on in my life that I haven't been able to make time to fufill you guys wishes to update and I am sorry . I will be up tasting both stories regularly . Thanks so much for everyone being patient , I love you guys ❤️ . - love kamrin.

  
Kaylon

I swear after yesterday night all I could think about was that August guy. It was just something about him that just made me curious about him. I mean yes he is sexy and yes his accent is such a turn on , but what the hell am I thinking? I don't have time to be worrying about any man , only man I should be worrying about is my baby boy and just be focused on being a great mother. I honestly feel as if I'll be forever alone , because I can't dare try to love again . I just cannot. Truthfully , the loneliness comes , I just feel so alone in this huge home . It's so hard having to be so strong and hold shit together when really I really have no one who could love me the way Ahmai did. I know he's looking down on me , watching over me and Ahmai and knowing that gives me strength.

"Mommy, mommy!" little Mai yelled as he tried getting my attention.

"What you want my little stinkbutt?" I said picking him up and sitting him on my lap.

"Mama, I want to go to the park and get a snowball." he said with a huge grin.

This little goof could not make up his mind. Every weekend I take little Mai to see his father at his gravesite and to wherever he wants. First Mai said , the zoo, then he said Chuck E Cheese . Now it's the park!

"Little boy , you better be sure this is what you want. You can't keep changing your mind you little rascal." I said as I started tickling him and kissing him all over his cheeks.

"Mommy , mommy you have cooties!" he laughed uncontrollably.

"Your daddy still has you saying that." I smiled at him as I stopped tickling him . " He loved his big boy so much." I told him .

"Mommy, daddy love you too. He's your angel mama." he smiled as he held my two cheeks and kissed my lips.

Moments like these , I swear I feel Ahmai around watching us. I love my son so much , he's so loving and caring and gives me such a purpose and strength to get up. These moments make life worth it and gives me so much peace.

"No baby, remember daddy is our angel." I say to him as I smile and kiss his fat little cheeks.

August.

Still can't get ma' mind of that stripper. Somethin' about her ain't like them other tricks in that strip club. Lil mama is a actual star, she talented as fuck. I'm new to Atlanta, I'm from New Orleans , and a nigga had to check out this famous strip club. Shit I might just go tonight just to be able to see her beautiful ass. Being 25 years old and being on my grind is sumn' I do. Niggas like me don't have time for females though . I ain't relationship material dawg. I make my qwuap working at the car dealership and my other hustles too. I spend money and fuck bad bitches. That's all I'm trying to get into. I ain't no grimy nigga , but I been hurt befo' that shit scarred a nigga fa' life and best believe a nigga ain't getting his heart nor head fucked up again.

"KayKay , Amaiya , and Chaylin y'all little ducklings betta' be ready fa I leave yall!" I yelled loud enough fa them to hea' upstairs.

I was taking my neices to the park . My neices are like my own children. Afta' ' my brotha' Mel died I took the stop of a father in my neices life. I go get em' every weekend to do sumn' fun with em. They are my princesses I swea' they mean the world to me. I'm being tha father my brotha would be to them if he was still hea' .