If There's A Question of My Love ( August Alsina Love Story )

Chapter 13

4 months later

   
These past four months have been quite a roller coaster for me.

On the bright side my mother has had an amazing recovery and is back to her usual self. Raschaud has been spending his usual time with Ahmai, and I'm blessed that he had someone to look up to while his dad can't be here. Tanisha has been my rock throughout all of this , the whole entire way.

Of course I started back stripping , and I'm glad to say that I've been bringing in nothing but racks. On the down side I haven't spoke to August in 4 months .

Sometimes I wish he'd come to the strip club to see me dance , or maybe just for a private dance so we could talk . He hasn't texted me or called me since our last encounter , and if I were him I wouldn't want to talk to me either . I let my guards get the best of me and missed out on something good, something I'll never be able to get back because of my actions .

Maybe I am in the wrong , but at the same time what's a relationship without trust? What's love if you can't trust each other enough to have it? It wouldn't be fair to me , but at the end of the day I realize I could change his logic , and make him think otherwise if I just proved him different . He probably doesn't want anything to do with me anymore , and that shit is really fucking me up.

" Mommy , I don't want you to go to work." Mai told he as he pouted his lip.

I hate hearing my son telling me he didn't want me to go to work . He doesn't understand that me working is the reason why I give him everything he needs and more. I just never want him to grow up thinking I never made enough time for him , while I'm out here trying to hustle .

" Come sit on mommy's lap Mai." I told him as I picked him up and sat him in my lap as I looked him in the eyes.

" Mommy goes to work so she can buy you all these toys , and to make sure you get everything I couldn't have when I was little. Mommy never had toys , and mommy never got to do fun things. So that's why mama works, so I can get you everything. Ok?" I told him as I smiled .

" Ok mommy! More toys and more fun if you go to work!" he said excitedly as he hugged me.

" Your right about that baby boy." I kissed my precious baby on his cheek.

" Now let's get ready to go by grandmas house , are you bringing your Legos?" I asked him as I picked up our plates from dinner.

" No mommy , Legos are for babies." he said to me as he made a stank face.

I chuckled " Boy go get ready so we can head out!"

45 minutes later.

I arrived to the strip club , and went through the back to get into the back where everyone was . I still was hated by these ratchet as girls , the usual but who cares .

I'm training this new girl Courtney , and she goes by the name Kash . I've been helping her out and putting her on game for about 2 weeks now and I'm beyond proud of her. She's a single mother like me , and the struggle and the hustle is real. I could relate to her in so many ways that's why it's only right that I help her out.

I got myself ready infront of my vanity and I finished my hair and makeup , and put my attire on for tonight .

" Hey boo." Courtney said to me as she gave me a hug.

" Hey sweetie, you ready for tonight?"

" Am I?!" She said while putting on her heels.
" I'm beyond ready. Brandon's birthday is coming up and I want to give him the biggest party ever girl."