Hidden Love | KaiRain

CHAPTER 1:

KAI's Point of View

I fixed my bag and closed my notebook as the bell chimed marking the conclusion of another school day. I glanced at my best friend, the person I am in love with, Rain. I rested my head on my palm and a faint smile escaped from my lips, daydreaming about her as I saw her chatting with Ate Kolette and Ate Jas.

"Baka matunaw si Rain nyan Kai"

I heard a familiar whisper behind my back and turned around only to see Fyang. I quickly shifted my gaze to Fyang, unable to hold eye-to-eye contact because she wasn't wrong.

"Bro I wasn't looking at her, I was looking at uhm the painting behind her, Jose Burgos."

"Hmmm, si Jose Burgos pala si Ra-"

I covered her mouth because she was too loud, and that caused the whole class, including Rain, to look at us. It was soooooooooooo embarrassing. I covered my face in Fyang's shoulder and sat down.

"SHH, Fyang naman eh."

The only person who is aware of my crush on Rain is her. Apart from Rain, she is the person I trust the most, but now I'm rethinking my decision, joke. Joking aside, her whisper is very loud, sounding like someone speaking normally. I am aware that Fyang will be held accountable if Rain finds out about our secret.

"Bakit kasi hindi ka nalang mag confess? Is it because pareho kayo na babae or afraid ka? Pero malay mo naman may chance ka."

At first, I was hesitant to respond because I thought that perhaps everything would end and I would be able to finally express all of my suppressed emotions. I know in my heart that I'm terrified-fearful of losing her, even though I know it's possible. I fear that our relationship will change completely.

"I just can't afford to lose her just because of my selfishness and besides, she's straight as hell and she knows that I'm straight so that won't happen"

Realization hits deep, bro. Bat ba kasi ako na in love with my own best friend. Love is so complicated and unexpected. Kinikilig ako sa mga actions nya, pero I know to myself na it doesn't mean anything because she also does that to others. Was it all casual?

I was mumbling to myself again and got disturbed by Fyang tapping my shoulder.

"What? Bakit? Anong mer-"

"KAISHAAAA"

I heard a familiar voice. A voice I have been wanting to hear for a while. I turned around only to see her, Rainah. I didn't hesitate to hug her as if we hadn't seen each other for decades, but in reality, we were just 2 rows apart.

"Kai, aalis na ako ha? Baka kasi maka ehem maka disturb ako sa inyo ni Jose Burgos ay si Rain pala ehem." She said with her stupid smirk.

I glanced at her and was obviously annoyed because Rain might have heard her. She quickly ran away and me and Rain were left alone along with our classmates na hindi parin umuuwi.

"Kai? What were you guys talking about? You look like a tomato bro." She touched my face and I got redder.

"Nothing bruh we are umm just talking about BTS" I removed her hand from my face cause I didn't want her to notice.

Rain looks like she doesn't believe it but I guess she considered it in the end. Phew, humanda ka talaga sa akin Fyang, I'll visit your house and freaking kill you bruh.

While we and Rain were talking, I noticed that JP was looking at me ever since Rain got here. I don't know why but it's making me uncomfortable, it's like ayaw nya akong kasama si Rain.

"Hey? Okay ka lang ba? You look uneasy." She looked around and touched my hand to make me feel at ease.

Eto na naman tayo, your actions Rain kahit alam kong walang meaning yan it's making me kilig.

"Nothing, can we just go na? And please hatid me hanggang house? Silence means yes so that's a yes."

"You didn't even give me time to answer, Kaisha but sure for you" she grabbed her backpack and waved goodbye to Ate Kolette and Ate Jas.

I couldn't help but think about Fyang's question as we were strolling. What if I came clean right now? Despite my best efforts, I was unable to communicate. Why am I unable to talk? Please let me talk, myself, so I can be honest.

"Rain?" Barely a whisper came out and she immediately looked at me.

"Bakit? What happened?"

Am I really ready? I can do this.

"I-I'm..."

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