Seventeen BoyxBoy smut(Unedited)

Seoksoo{Hurting Him} Pt1.

{Ship: Jeongcheol/ Angst and fluff/ Top: Seokmin} (Side ships: Jihan and Jeonghcheol)

{There will be talk of suicide and suicide attempts in this chapter}

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Yoon Jeonghan and Hong Joshua, the high school sweethearts. They started dating in 11th grade, and now that they are in their junior year of college they are still going strong 

The two met during a science lab during high school, they fell in love and Joshua the American exchange student asked Jeonghan out 

Joshua was perfect...to perfect for Jeonghan. Jeonghan knew he loved Joshua, but didn't know how much, and if it were friendly love or deeper than that.

Joshua and Jeonghan were laying together, and Joshua saw Jeonghan was thinking deep about something 

Joshua chuckled "Come on sit up" he spoke and pulled Jeonghan up "Huh?" Jeonghan let out "Talk to me, you're thinking about something, its bothering you, so tell me about it" he spoke 

Jeonghan shook his head "Its nothing" he smiled "Ah come on Jeonghan, im your boyfriend and future husband, you have to be honest with me" Joshua spoke 

Jeonghan shook his head "it's nothing so leave it at that" Jeonghan laid back down facing away from Joshua. Joshuas smile fell as he looked at the back of his lover, someone he loved deeply and would do anything for

He laid down and faced away from Jeonghan, a tear ran down his face, he feel the disconnect between him and Jeonghan...maybe its because Joshua is still a virgin, is that upsetting Jeonghan?

Joshua sat back up "We can have sex Jeonghan" he spoke "Joshua what?" Jeonghan spoke and sat up, Joshua sat on Jeonghans lap "Joshua" "Just go on, fuck me, we havent done anything with each other, you probably sick of dating the virgin boy, so fuck me go on" Joshua tried to undo Jeonghans top

"Joshua-...shu-...Joshua-...STOP!" Jeonghan yelled pushing Joshua off him "What the hell is wrong with you!?" Jeonghan yelled you "I don't know you tell me. My damn boyfriend has been keeping things from me, you won't talk to me, you don't face me, or hold me when we sleep, it must be because im a virgin" 

"Omg Joshua for the last time, I don't care you're virgin" Jeonghan spoke "Then why are you ignoring me huh?" Joshua spoke "You are lying to me, you are deep in thought all the time, and all you do is lie and say its nothing"

"So just fuck me, and get it over with" Joshua spoke "Joshua go to your apartment tonight...I don't wanna be around you" Joshuas face dropped "Jeonghan" Joshua spoke 

"Look im sorry" "No Joshua go!" Jeonghan yelled, Joshua gave up and nodded, he grabbed his stuff and he left 

Jeonghan let out a tired sigh as he picked up his phone "Can you come over please" 

Joshua walked to his apartment as tears ran down his face, he entered his apartment and dropped his stuff as he fell to the floor crying 

"Hyung what's the noise" His roommate came out, but gasped "Omg" his roommate Vernon went to him "What happened?" he spoke Joshua only cried as he shook his head 

"So why did you call me over?" "Seungcheol...im having issues with Joshua" Jeonghan spoke "Because he's a virgin?" Seungcheol spoke "No, I don't care he's a virgin, I don't know how I feel about him" 

"What do you mean?" Jeonghan sighed "I think im falling out of love with him. When I kiss him it feels like nothing" Jeonghan spoke "I know he loves me, but-" "You don't and you don't wanna hurt him" 

Jeonghan nodded as Seungcheol spoke "Well...um I think take it slow, give yourself a few days, then if you feel the same way, tell him lightly" 

Jeonghan nodded "Thanks Seungcheol, I can always count on you" Jeonghan smiled at Seungcheol and Seungcheol smiled back at him