As the eldest, I stand so tall,
But inside, I feel so small.
I carry burdens, deep and wide,
Hiding my pain, I push inside.
I watch my siblings laugh and play,
Wishing I could join their day.
I want to feel that love is real,
But fear and doubt, they often steal.
I try so hard to make them proud,
To shine like sunlight in a crowd.
I clean and help, I wear a smile,
But deep inside, I ache a while.
I long for hugs, a gentle touch,
A kind word whispered, saying, “You’re enough.”
Just to be loved, no strings attached,
To feel safe and whole, my heart unmatched.
I hope for a day when I can be free,
To show my true self, just me, just me.
Until then, I hold on tight,
Dreaming of love that feels so right.
