The Unwanted Kim

chapter 11

Seokjin's pov;
When I married Hoseok it felt like I am finally free of bottled up anger, grievances and emotions. Since my childhood I was most pampered first by my grandparents then my mom.

But it was difficult to keep up with challenges of their demands mom wanted me perfect in appearance, to gain fame and influence. I was foody but I always had to sacrifice my cravings, I spend this on lavish things. I believe it is my right to have everything expensive.

I never accepted Namjoon, so it hurt me when I saw him getting more attention and love from Jung's when Hoseok loves me.

He took me to Australia, initially everything was fine but he started taking control of my life it started from small things.

"Seokjin don't eat oily food you will get pimples"
"Seokjin don't walk like that you look like aunty"
"Don't laugh like that"
"Why you are showing so much skin"
"Why you smiled at him"
"Stay at home"
"Don't go out"
"I don't like this"
"You will only do what I say"
"This is my house my rules"

He even started abusing me, from pushes to slaps, to punches to kicks. His family blamed me for lying when it was his idea.

He made me bad, I felt empty and alone he told me to stay hungry to loose my weight.
"I like you thin waisy, why you gained two pounds of my God you will become buffalo soon!" He told me one-day.

"Hobi! You love me you should accept me the way I am!" I told him .

He smiled "I do love you, but you are model aren't you? And I love you for being you and are a model a role model!" He told me

"But I am fed of your controlling behavior Hoseok, let me live the way I want!" I yelled I have had enough.

"You want me to teach you again, Seokjin why you always want me to use my hands, whenever I try to be good to you why you act like brat?" He asked me taking his belt out.

"Y... you said you love me, p... please don't hurt me!" I begged but he fucked me whole night slashing my skin whenever I told him to stop.

I didn't tell my parents, I knew I chosed him for my self, I can't go back it would hurt my pride if Namjoon knew what I was going through after stealing his fiance.

I tried to live with him, because I loved him I tried be everything he likes but he was never satisfied when I got chance and I slipped out of his hands.

It was surprising he divorced me easily he didn't even protested. I saw Yoongi as escape as opportunity, I didn't enjoy mocking Namjoon anymore but I can't show my vulnerability to him. He would have my weakness in his hand, I was coward I accept.

But how could I become so heartless, I hate myself for the sin I committed I shouldn't be called human, mother is a beautiful word, a warm feeling but how could I had heart to do this my own child.

I left home after Yoongi's rejection I decided to make him pay and I had trump card in my hand. I didn't revealed my pregnancy I got projects after projects I came back after seven months to find angry Yoongi.

He came to me he slapped me "you are stone heart Seokjin!" He shouted but I deserve it.

I let him curse me I lost myself a week back in Europe.
"What happened Jin what you did now?" My family asked him

I never seen Yoongi so broken he cried "he..he murdered an innocent life he was innocent Seokjin, you could have came to directly you took everything from me I'll destroy you all, I'll come at them now!" He threatened me but I was numb.

I lifted weight of my sins on my shoulders, I could here cries of newborn.

Yes! I told him I aborted his child I was lost in revenge and anger honestly I saw Hoseok in him and did this to hurt him. But I was hurt most, I lost piece of my soul, my blood and my bone.