The Unwanted Kim

chapter 15

Jimin's pov:
I came to his office he is still sitting in his chair head on its support staring in nothingness. I felt hurt he looked broke, devastated, pale and fragile.

I can't help but place my hands in his shoulders I slowly massaged, he closed his eyes I know it is helping him.

"Why I am so alone, Jimin?" He asked softly
I pinched my lips I don't know how to respond, why he can't see he is not I am here always waiting for his attention.

"I accept I played dirty, I did wrong, I accept I committed sin, but why he can't see I also survived enough, I also punished myself?" He cried I can see tears rolling corners of his eyes.

"I never loved him he was distraction for me, I used to....use his body for my pleasure but his brother's rejection hurt my ego, my pride Jimin I decided to hit him in same manner, I don't know how to persuade him, how he would accept me?" He asked me.

"He will you have to be patient, love is not about getting something, or snatching or stealing it, love is about giving, understanding, even sacrificing" I told him.

"It is difficult to do then stating!" He chuckled.
"It is difficult, but when you see them happy it worth it to try!" I told him massaging his temples.

"Your blood pressure is high" I told him

"How you know, without even checking it?" He asked .

"I just know!" I told him I put medicine in his palm taking his care is my pleasure but he will never know.

"Can you take me home?" He asked me I turned in surprise. He always drops me but never asked me to drop him.

"Ok let's take you home" I told him

"I said home not house I mean your home!" He told me I can see he don't want to stay alone I nodded.

I drove us to my home it was not big but it was enough. He sat on couch looking around I sighed I know it is not luxurious like his mansion.

"I am hungry!" He told me I nodded I took frozen dumplings, fried some and steamed others.

I poured chicken stock with multi grain rice and kimchi. It was not lavish but I hope it was enough.

I served him plate and he ate everything I was bit surprised.
"I am sorry it is not much" I accepted.

"It is most delicious meal I have in five years, I usually don't eat at house it felt like I am feeding dead body!" He gulped soju in a go.

I watched him devouring food I still remember the day I met him in office he stormed out in anger. I wander why he is so angry? Someone as handsome as him should be happy.

Later I was selected as fifth secretary in one month he fired others. It was difficult to understand him initially but I managed his cold attitude, yelling and anger effected me in different way.

He stood up he slurred "I...I..want to .. sleep...I am sleepy jiminah!" He told me I stood up to support him.

"Namjoonah! Jooniah! Ahhh forgive me ..come back to me!" He shouted.

"Stop it you'll wake up neighbors!" I told him.

He chuckled "let's ...party let them come!" He yelled more

"Jiminahh! Jiminahh!" He started calling my name.

"I swear I'll tape your mouth!" I warned him but he laughed more finally fell on floor with thud.

I just looked at him, "now how am I suppose to lift you?" I asked him.

"Call joonah he will take me!" He told me
"You really love him don't you?" I asked
"Love...I don't know ...but I like to talk him, laugh with him and spend time...love may be or ...may be not!" He told me I sighed he is really drunk.